I walked through the 5 feet tall grass lifting up my satin blue summer dress
It was a sunny day, I walked towards the big tree about a mile south of my little house
The apples under the shade of the tree was red cold and delicious on this summer day
I jumped up but it was too high I just gave up and I sat down in the grass exhausted

A shadow casted over me and I looked up
big brown eyes stared down at me "can I help you pick a apple mam" he said, I smiled "sure" I said politely
And with a little jump he grabbed the apple I wanted
He pulled me up on my feet and gave it to me but as I reached out to take it he took it away giving me his most beautiful mischievous smile
He took a bite out of the apple and I said "hey! That's mine"
"Well little darling why don't you come and take it from me" his eyes dancing with excitement
"Well sir" I said mysteriously leaning forward showing my collarbone
He's lips parted I heard his breath hitch and he stared at me motionless and shocked
I smiled and took the apple out of his hand "I'll take that" and took a bite as I walked away
He grabbed my arm and smiled "till we meet again"

Standing here on the edge again
But I'm 5 feet closer to it then I was yesterday
The wind brushes against my skin like your fingertips always used to
I close my eyes and pretend its you
But reality is just to real
I sit down on the edge contemplating if I should jump or turn around and I know if I do I'll just run into you

Your voice was my lullaby but now its the background music of my nightmares
And the touch of your skin stings my body
And you're heart is rejecting me
I stood up ready to jump
I closed my eye and see your face I shook the image away
And jumped
Hands grab my waist and pulled me from the edge of death
We fall to the ground and familiar lips pressed to my ear whispers "don't leave me I still love you baby"

I've been putting on a front for so ******* long I've come to terms of my never ending suffering
But cracked under the stare of your piercing eyes
And my heart betrayed me and my head can't save me

I've lost so much but gained enough to move on with you
You showed me a world of pain not just happy love endings
You showed me the tainted part of your bastared soul
But I wanted your heart

You loved my innocence and lack of knowledge of love
You used to kiss me like you haven't saw me in a while and I miss that now, all I have is a unmade bed when it was the last time when we made love, now I'd rather settle for the ground then the  painful memories it brought back to my fading mind.

you always used to say you loved me no matter what happens but now all I feel is the empty pretense of what we was
Even if you came back you could never save me
Our love was doomed to fail.