Oh, I love You
yet forever and ever
My heart floats upon a sea of sorrow
Oh, let this crass and ignorant world
go its crass and ignorant way
with its running to and fro
never knowing a feeling of love
or any true emotion
this hopeless world in all its strife
searches in vain for an answer
How it knows not
that no answer lies in war, or money, nor fame
How it searches in vain
neither does it know nor suspect
that all its answers lie in a warm embrace
of a passionate love
of one heart holding in its self
the love of another
a bottomless burning passion
that says, " I surrender all".
Oh, how I am a worthless hopeless thing
without You
a mere sea of pain and ache
whose bottom knows no end
Oh, for without You
I know all hope is lost
and better it was
I had never been born
than see the day
I loose You
to be blinded by a sea of pain and tears
Oh, how could I then live.
Oh, I have loved You
and yet love You more still
I open My heart
I hold My arms forth
hoping for Your embrace
and You turn Your heart from Me
and I am helpless
My heart sinks with longing
You have been an elusive and exotic creature
I ask Myself everyday
Why? Oh, why Me?
Why am I always
so unworthy in Your eyes
Oh, how My soul floats upon  a sea of sorrow
Why do I remain
a source of shame in Your eyes
Oh, why am I counted
as nothing in Your eyes
A lowly worm
who crawls through the dust of the earth
but Oh,  though I am counted by You
as a thing not to be looked upon
a creature of loathing
never to be looked upon
or brought into memory
My heart in its sadness says
" I forgive all".
Oh, how far into eternity
must the days pass
and how many universes must come and go
each being born and dying in its time
before Your  cold heart can come to say
" I love You".
When all of time had run its course
Oh, how I wait the melting of Your cold heart
Oh, how I am frozen
in this block of stone
this loveless hell
This bed of stone that I lie upon
But Oh, how I shall wait
as eternity rolls
as the sun burns its self to a cinder
and the stars burn and flicker out
one by one
for without You all eternity
is but a dead thing.

I have loved
My heart has always
gone out to You
I have stood at the foot of Your bed
and watched You sleep
and always I have loved You
You have never known Me
nor cared
but You have always been
the center of My world
I see You as You walk by
and My heart sinks
for I love You.
I die a little every day
When I awake in the morning
and You are not by My side.
you are life to Me
for I cannot live without You
and You will be My death
because it is killing Me inside
that You neither know Me
nor care
please bury Me
in the darkness
at the midnight hour
far from the light of day
and write upon My tombstone
" Here lies a sad and lonely man
who had a love as deep as the sea
who shall lie here evermore
unloved and unwanted
in this cold and lonely grave".

I had never known
such a thing were possible
as I lay upon My bed
as strange and exotic things
swam through My head
as a love such as this
Oh, how I love You
My soul quakes within Me
Oh, how I am bound to you
Oh, My soul longs for You
with a deep aching longing
how My very mouth is at a loss  for words
to tell of My deep longing and love for  You
You inspire Me. A supernova of love for You
greater than the light of a million suns
Oh,  how lovely are Your flowing locks of raven hair
Your voice is as soft as the summer rain
Oh, fairest of ten thousand
You  are lovely beyond words
more than My imagination
in its wildest dreams has ever dreamed
in the heights of fancy
or in ***** intoxicated ramblings
Oh, I would tear  My self asunder
fiber by fiber
if for you I had to gain
my body and soul
is wracked by fever
an at once sweet and fervent burning fever
My heart feels its space to You as no space
My heart occupies the same space as Yours
Oh, My blood is Your blood
My heart beating in sinc
beat for beat with Yours
a chained slave to Your heart
Oh, I would die without You
My source of life cut off
as the rose dies
when the rain is no more
when clouds of heaven
shut there doors
without You
no laughter
and without You no beauty
in this world
only a sad farewell

Though You ever hurt Me
I only love You more
love beyond reason
the other half of My soul
Oh, I remember how
we once walked hand in hand
Oh, how You are a stabbing
painful knife in My heart
yet I love You evermore still
Oh, deep inside My heart
My soul cries out in pain
how it bleeds for You
for if without You I belong not
then no place in this world can I call home
Oh, You are life for Me
and without You
only a living and walking death remains
Oh, love for You flows in My veins
without You My veins are but day and hollow
and My life is as day and lifeless
as the bones of a skull
that has lain in a desert a thousand years
only Your love can bring Me back to life
and return My heart to beating
My love for You is pure
as a wine aged centuries old
Oh, I would suffer
a pain wracked body for You My love
impaled upon a stake of pine
as My blood flows down to the ground
and stains  the wood scarlet red
for You I would drain
every drop of blood
from My veins
till they are all hollow
and dusty dry
without You let Me lie
in a small and narrow box so dark
entombed in the icy ground
as its cold chill stills
the blood in My veins
a cold and dark thing
that once had heart and mind
who once had hope of love
and heaven's bright shore
but who now lies forever
in this cold icy ground
a lone icy hell
separated from your love
forever and evermore

Oh, how I yearn
for Your electric touch
Your soothing touch
that says, " all is well with the world."
Oh, when I look into Your soft eyes
it seems that My heart will explode
for Your touch
I would wait a million years
or travel to the far ends of the universe
Oh, I would walk through the fiery pit
just to gaze into Your eyes
those soft deep black eyes
Oh, how they contain mysteries
beyond understanding
Oh, how My heart is tied to Yours
Your heart the very hub of the universe
without You the world would be a loveless place
Oh, of love You are the source and the keeper
how You are the very source of life
without You I would be but a dead lifeless thing
more machine than man
only going through the meaningless motions of life
eat this! drink that!
and to what end?
with Your every kiss, and every touch
You bring me to life
a new birth every time I look into Your eyes
and with every touch my heart is inflamed
Oh, how You hold me in the palm of Your hand
You my love. The meaning of all.
Oh,  You are the reason I live
for without You
the light would fade from My eyes
and My heart would be only a dull mechanical thing

Is the universe unbegotten?
can one say that some great mind
did not calculate the width
and breathed of the universe
of the stars that circle through the sky
of  Orion as he makes his way
on his nightly hunts
of worlds too many
for the mind to comprehend
of nightmare worlds
where manlike scorpions  battle to death
to worlds populated  with cities
made from shimmering light
more lovely than any man
has ever imagined
of galaxies that blow themselves apart
of planets where dinosaurs yet roam
who made the colors of the world
put the blue in the sky
and the fire in the sun?
Oh, the elements have a secret language
I have often in a half awake haze
heard them chattering back and forth
as I lay with My head upon My pillow
Oh, who can decipher their tiny beeps  and buzzes
each but a cell in a great brain
one who says gravity is thus and thus
and no greater
one who sees without eyes
the evil man
and thinks, "I know Your ways!".
who sees a secret loving act and remembers
one who space and time cannot contain
but who contains space and time within himself
who made the worlds out of sheer joy
and sang the heavens into being
one of whom our joy is his joy
and our sorrow his sorrow
for whom ever beat of a heart matters
every tear counted
and to who our every thought
is as an earthquake
all are connected in him
all are one
our pain every man's pain
and in our love every man shares

Oh, love is the food of the soul
and music its drink
Oh, if I could sing a song
I would sing of You
of how the life of My soul
dances to the beat of your heart
that there is nothing you do not love
Oh, My loneliness is a desert
Oh, such a forlorn desert
without your love
I would be without hope without You
oh, what pain
so many miles You are gone from Me
every mile a stab of pain to the heart
Oh, but how I can feel your heart beating still
Oh, how to My soul and Your soul
mile do not exist
at night I walk with You in My dreams
Oh, I see your face in My dreams
and then I wake without You
but My soul is still with You
you and Me hand in hand
our hearts connected
like invisible threads
running from My heart to Yours
Oh, for where love is miles are not