My soul is stained
scarlet red
scarlet red with the passion
of the blood that flows
through heart and brain and bone
You My love inflame every inch of My being
Oh, how I am lost without You
I am filled with a delirious longing
Oh, the words I cannot find
I search and search
and tear the flesh of My brain asunder
I search the deep parts of My soul
My very being
to find words that will not come
though I had the tongues
of ten thousand angels
I could not find
the words I search for
so desperately
Oh, I am desperate for
that haunting word
on the tip of My tongue
that sacred word
that would tell of the depth of My love
that the depths of hell
and the heights of heaven
is neither more deep
nor as great
as My love for You
if You love me not My angel
take a blade sweet love
and still my beating heart
a release from My agony
however You hurt Me
My sweet love
I only love You more
then let Me lie
in the cold and dark
of the earth for evermore
a poor unloved
forgotten
and failed soul
who exist
nevermore

Though Your soul
may be scarlet in hue
though You may have
committed sins without number
I pledge My love to You
with the scarlet
of My blood
let it flow
into a cup
this blood of life
My life
I give to You
Oh, I have searched
for a love such as You
if not You
Oh, where do I find her
through this wide world
I could walk
till the skin left My feet
and blood for them did flow
I could dive to the bottom of the sea
or climb to the top of the sky
search for a million years
and down the halls of forgotten time
and never find such a one as You
I give to You
I seal My poor beating heart
Oh, without You
I am like a motherless child
take this My love
as I pour out this cup
of My blood scarlet in hue
a pledge to the gods
for all immortal time
If you cease to love Me
let the sun no longer shine
and the flesh fall from My bones
and I become the dust for which I came
when I walk upon the silent
sacred forest
I hear a sacred song
only My and Your heart
can hear
let our life be as one
My dear love
Oh, how I long for Your
sacred love
no creature
in all eternity
has ever been so blessed
by a goddess
of such a soft flaming fire
a fire of love
Oh, bright goddess
let Me remain
in Your embrace
let love drip
from Your heart into mine
Oh, life to My soul
Your love is a mystery
Your love is a song
a song of ages past
and ages to come
Oh, I worship You
Oh, goddess
goddess of love
goddess of My soul
To You I pledge
this love to ever be true

I cry
for the tender word
left unspoken
take My heart
as a token
of My deep longing
Oh, the universe
dies before My eyes
without Your embrace
and all of nature
has a color and hue
of death
Oh, My heart
returns to the grave
without Your embrace
from which You raised
it to life
by Your sweet smile
and the love that dripped
from You heart
onto My grave
a poor dead thing
without You My love
My sweet angel
let Me return
to a pile
of dry and dead
and withered  bones
Oh, the world is so cruel
It steals
the thing cherished most
let My blood freeze in My veins
or run as a red river
fate curses Me
cursed before My birth
Oh, that night
that a man child was born
let it not see the sun
forever in night
without Your love
and Your embrace
all the world is dead to Me
I the love of the only son cannot redeem
without Your embrace
death has conquered  the world.
for Me
there can be no glad tidings
every man
and every woman
I see is but
a walking bag of bones
Oh, the butterflies
that flew so gaily
there wings have all turned to grey
at night I dream of Your face
a beautiful dream
how, Oh how do I live without You
the soft wind
as it blows through the trees
reminds Me of Your sweet breath
the loving word
You whispered to Me
how it made the world
so bright and gay
Oh, I pray sweet love
let not
an ill wind
blow its icy breath
through My soul
and My bones
Oh, the grave is a deep place
and it calls to Me
when I am lost
from Your embrace
Oh, let the cold north wind
blow not on our love
the world that seems
so bright and lovely
would be but a skeleton
of its former self
nature weeps
the tears of the trees
are on the leaves
and a cold tear
flows down
flows down the face
of a cold stone angel
nature sings its sad song
a song of nevermore
never again with Me
cast Me not aside
Oh, My sweet love
for My soul's forsaken
on that day
it shall die
and I will remain
in My sad cold
grave forever.

Your love
is a drug
the fire that flows through
My veins
like a drug
opens up
the windows of My soul
Oh, I can see eternity
Oh, the worlds I see
the worlds!
and the stars and the suns
they are moved
by the power of Your love
as soft as a summer rain
as strong as steel
as cool as the evening mist
Your love is real
more real than anything else in the universe
it pours out
its endless and bottomless
treasures
I am filled with a lovely pain
a pain that says
enough! enough!
of Me
Oh, I am worthless
an exposed thing
in the full light
of Your love
beyond My understanding
how can You love
one as unlovely as I?
Oh, I am a deformed thing
exposed to the blinding light
of Your love
You are perfect
of line and symmetry
you are filled with an inner glow
Oh, the light of Your love
glows like the light of a thousand suns
a shimmering radiant galaxy
and I poor half formed creature
of the shadows
I slink through the world
on all fours
how could You have such
love and grace
like God's only son
My innocent loving angel
You tell Me
" Innocent not I
for I give My love freely
to what creature come
to what creature may"
You give of Your love
overflowing
it flows from its bottomless store
oh, how could You love
such an ugly half formed creature
such as I
as the only son
opened his veins for all
You open the endless wellspring
of Your heart and Your soul
You are perfect beyond compare
no creature
ever drew breath
on earth
or in the heaven's above
who had such
grace and love
as You
you are beautiful My love
beyond compare                                                          ­         
the angels are such ugly and unlovely things
in Your compare
Your love was before
the universe was born
and shall remain
when it dies
out of Your heart comes
endless treasures
untold
beyond worlds
beyond compare
and I half formed creature
can only sit and wonder
at a mystery
kept by the ages
and wonder forever
and evermore.

The life of My soul
dances to the music
of You heart
it dances to a breathless excitement
a quickening rhythm
how your flesh burns Me
not the heat of a harsh flame
but with a burning warmth
heat from Your raging passionate blood
under Your skin
Your sweat
like a sticky perfume
so sweet
I dance to this breathless
excitement
You call out My name
and I Yours
in tender whispers
this dance of love
let it know no ending
let the sun vanish
let it never rise again
let Me never see
the light of day
like an eternal vampire
who forever lives in night
oh, the angels
can have there heaven
I see now
it is but a dull
and worthless thing
how Your sweat
seeps into My pores
an intoxicating potion
I am enslaved
by the taste
of Your sweat
on the tip of My tongue
You have become
My universe
My soul
My very soul
dances to the rhythm
of Your heart
Oh, the music of Your heart
Speaks of mysteries
that  no creature
ever knew
since
creation began
the universe
is but a wavering phantom
and only You
My love are real.

I call out Your name
Oh, I call out Your name
that lovely sound
on the tip of My tongue
come to me My sweet love
My heart flies from Me
as Your name echos
through My mind
like a haunting song
so lovely
a million angels
could not sing
could not sing a song so sweet
as that lovely name on the tip
of My tongue
that sweet song
of only one word
I will sing throughout
all eternity
oh, the angels in heaven
would feel unworthy
to bare a name as lovely
Oh, a living fire
is carried on that name
a name
the angels are unworthy to sing
oh, the name the angels
cannot sing
how My heart flies away
flies from  My chest
into God's starry night sky
oh, it searches in vain
How My soul feel's such pain
searching for a name
carried by a creature
so lovely
the angels dare not name
oh, I am lost without You
without You
I could never sing
such a name.

As I lay upon My bed
I am haunted by a feverish dream
Your lovely haunting form
dances before Me
Oh, how I pursue Your shadow
down a dark mystic  and foggy lane
I call  out Your name
Oh, My distress
You are a haunting ghost
a creature of feverish and haunting desire
I have never known such a love before
never knew such a thing could exist
Oh, if you cast Me off
My sweet love
I would wish My soul
to cease  to exist
Oh, My soul
Oh, how My soul is tied to Yours
Oh, if one told Me that such
a love could exist
I would have thought him
a mad man
escaped from the darkest
depths  of the darkest mad house
that could ever be
How I pursue Your lovely haunting form
just out of reach
to embrace you in My arms
an embrace that would never end
Oh, how lovely Your breast
as they rise and fall
with every breath You take
Oh, how lovely Your haunting form
You haunt My mind still
as I lay upon My bed
as I toss to and fro
and awake intoxicated
Oh, how Your lovely form haunts Me still
like a drug
a shade
has passed through Me
and stolen My soul
Oh, how You haunt Me still
and how You shall haunt Me
evermore.