I am starving
And you are an apple just out of reach

I know each bite would be juicy and sweet

I am cold
And you are the furry blanket I left behind

I know if I had you I would be warm

I am unsatisfied

You would bring me the most satisfaction.

There's this weight on my chest
And it has nothing to do with how much I weigh

The air is caught in my lungs
And there's a pain like no other
My head hurts from all the pressure

And no medicine can cure it
I don't know how to make it go away

I just want one free breath.

For years
I thought your emotional abuse was love

I deluded myself for so long

And even now I wish that some part of that pain was love.

Passion and bliss

Is all that I miss

Not the sparkle in your eyes




why do I tell such lies?

I try swimming away from your current

But you always pull me in

Swift and all consuming

You devour all of me.