There's this weight on my chest
And it has nothing to do with how much I weigh

The air is caught in my lungs
And there's a pain like no other
My head hurts from all the pressure

And no medicine can cure it
I don't know how to make it go away

I just want one free breath.

For years
I thought your emotional abuse was love

I deluded myself for so long

And even now I wish that some part of that pain was love.

Passion and bliss

Is all that I miss

Not the sparkle in your eyes




why do I tell such lies?

I try swimming away from your current

But you always pull me in

Swift and all consuming

You devour all of me.

The water in your well is all my toxic love for you

The other well is clean hydrating water

And while I need to stay hydrated

Something about that toxic water

Is just so addictive.

I've been stupid now thirteen long years

I've been stupid since the moment we met

The moment I saw you

And I fell in stupid love

Nothing else really mattered in comparison

You were my oxygen

And even now that I've learned to live without you, you're still my heart beat

And here I am trying to stop my heart

Anything to stop being stupid

You taught me I could be addicted to a person

But there's never been a patch for you

Four years in withdrawal

Not a single hit

And here I am

Still stupid

Still missing you.

I loved you in a thousand ways

Then everything changed

And I still loved you in hundreds of ways

Some love just can't be erased.