Victoria Jennings

Victoria Jennings May 2021

Have you ever laid in bed beside someone who loved you and somehow with your whole heart still believed your soulmate was still out there somewhere?

Victoria Jennings May 2021

Jail

How can I many ways can I say

"I'm disappointed"

Maybe I'm a traditionalist

Expecting you to provide where I can't

Expecting you to clean when I provide

Expecting you to try harder

I'm tired of feeling like a criminal.

Victoria Jennings May 2021

I swear

I swear half of you is perfect for me

I swear sometimes when we're in bed together I can physically feel your love

I swear that you wake up everyday and believe you are doing your best

I swear when you smother me in hugs and kisses I want you forever

I swear that you're damaged like me and it heals both of our cracks to be together

But I swear you make some days impossible

I swear some days I'm more disappointed than proud

I swear some days I've cried more than smiled

And I swear I don't know if this really will be forever for us

and that scares me.

Victoria Jennings May 2021

Hit Me

Sometimes I hope a car hits me

Just so I have a reason to cry

And if you've ever felt that way

I feel as sorry for you as I do for myself.

Victoria Jennings Apr 2021

Just a thought really

Sometimes you're with someone who you love more

You build up their confidence

Make them sure you love them

That they are in fact lovable

And they begin to see just how great they are

So they no longer see value in what you have

They think they can do better

Be with someone prettier or sexier

You've built them strong enough to leave you.

I have now been on both sides of this coin and both make my gut wrench.

Victoria Jennings Mar 2021

Aries

We are addicted to people

We fall so deep

We never quite know how to let go.

Victoria Jennings Mar 2021

Well well well

There are moments
I still long to be in your arms

It's like drinking from a poisonous well

I could drink you all day

But in the end I was hurt

I would hate myself for wanting to go back

But the thirst just grows

And I have to decide

Would I rather hurt or die of thirst.

Just thinking about how you would compliment me one moment and insult me the next.