It's like I keep trying to piece back these broken shards

They were once a whole beautiful vase

And now they're pieces scattered across our room

I don't know I to put a band aid on to make it better

How do you fix something so broken?

I think somewhere along the lines

My brain and heart got together

And decided it wanted you

I don't know how to get them to stop now.

She plays her life on repeat

Thinking about all the wrong turns

All the wrong words

All the things she wishes she could take back

The love she wishes she could just inhale back into her lungs

Pretend it never existed
Along with so many other cruel things

She wishes she had learned control sooner

Control of her heart
Her fears
Her naive nature

Always trusting
Always giving

Always laying herself on the line
For those who don't give her a second thought

She replays the moments she was happy

So few of these make them that much more precious

To live her life over
Would be a great gift.

****** tension so delectable
The best buffet one could attend

I think our souls once casted the same shadow

And being young and stupid
We believed that meant we were one in the same

That we were meant to be

But just because the shadows look the same doesn't mean they are the same in the light.

I wake up
And every hair is standing up on my arms

I lay there as I begin to remember my dream

As I remember a face I shouldn't be dreaming of.

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