While I can never forget the ecstasy of your body wrapped up in mine, it is not that in which I miss the most. At least, not especially.

More than anything I miss talking to you, words just poured out of me with you. I always told you the truth even if it hurt.

We live these separate worlds now, our love too toxic for this lifetime. But I miss those ears listening to my heart. Always knowing me better than I knew myself.

My heart and body
Are being torn apart

Do I want love
Or love making

I cannot have both

Not from the one I love.

I had loved you for so long

So long it ached with every breath I took

And now years after

All I can agree we had in common

Was great ***.

I love you

But then

Wall

You're 28

Depending on me

To do basic needs

Turning an arm injury

Into a lifetime of excuses

I don't know what to do

Because there's this boy

Who actually seems like

Just slightly more of a man

And there's you grown

And slightly more childish

And my heart is flustered

And my brain confused

And I just wish you would grow up.