Even after all this time
When I feel broken and alone
I tell myself I need you


You started my brokenness
I don't need you

Or maybe I always will.

She sighed into the cold air
Watching her breath

She hoped someday
Somehow she wouldn't feel
Like this
So in love with love

She hoped when she whispered
"I love you" into the night
That one day
It wouldn't be unanswered

She was so tired
Of loving so much
To be used and left
She was tired of lies
And of being alone

She felt like he had to be out there or maybe she had already met him and he was one of the people who left her

She wasn't quite sure
She wasn't sure of anything
She was lost
But she was still full of love
Even if she had no one

She sighed and whispered
"Someday"
Because no matter how the world breaks her she will always find love and she will always find hope.

The truth of it is
I am not good enough for them
That's why they leave me

They must wake up one day
And realize
I'm not beautiful
And they were crazy to ever say so

They must wake up
And wonder
Why they tell me they love me

They must wake up
And see
I'm flawed inside and out

My hair is thick and unruly
My body is not pretty or toned
My heart is fragile so I worry too much
I say "Hi" at random moments
And I'm too scared to touch
Because I think I'm a bother
I cry for no reason sometimes
I care too much and this scares them
So they see this and leave
Along the way making fake promises
About staying friends and about
Maybe one day being together again
But they'll always see me as flawed
They'll always see the failure
The crazy animal lady
The ****** who loved them too fast
I will never be perfect
And they will never love me for my flaws
They will never love me period
And no I'm not okay with living
As a broken woman
Because it's simply not fair
To love so much
To be broken every time.

Once again I believed
I had found love
Because I loved so strongly
I believed it could be enough
For the two of us
But as strong as my love may be
It cannot make them stay
They are destined to leave
They all are.