In 6 years time
I’ll be out of my mind
Not crazy, just free
That’s who I thought I’d be

But it’s 6 years now
And I’m stepping out
My peace was put on hold
To destroy the lives I loved

It was like a nightmare wrapped in a dream
It was like a coma where I acted out things
Took a hit into a reality
That no one else was living

And now I’ve come out
I don’t want to go back in
But I’m sure the pain I felt then
Is nothing like it is

Take a break, run the shower
Dunk my head and close my ears
Hear the rumble of water dropping
Around me and on my skin

I don’t care it’s a weird place to go
But I let myself be simple
A koi fish in a pond
While the rain pours on

I can’t ask the question
Why’d this happen to me
Because why not, I guess
But it still feels like a cheat

It was like a jump from a skyscraper
That building is so tall
I didn’t know the long fall
I didn’t know the long fall

It felt like control
From someone that’s not my own
But the mess that was made
Is mine and mine alone

Mine and mine alone