hold onto it.
she used to look at me that way.









and losing her...
i wouldn't wish that on anyone,
certainly not you.

is my real problem how much i need your adoration, or how hard pressed i am to find it these days?

far to close for comfort,
but it feels so right.
heart beating like a hummingbirds wings,
but i feel so calm.
both eyes open,
and i can't see you clearly.
but you look nicer like this,
all you sharp edges
soft to my blurred vision.
lines are wavering,
colors swirling together,
but never has anything seemed so clear.

i don't get it.
you care when i cry,
but never when i bleed.