The enjoyment of eating,
Marvels of television's ability to drown problems,
Games to replace reality was all he wanted.
The young life,
Reality,
Offered everything emotionally diabolic to a growing, developing mind.
Through ridicule from elementary peers; fat, ******, stinky or stinker or something relational.
Through defensive mechanisms of accepting ridicule from family.
Through seemingly harsh reactions to a young mind’s spoken word;
A growing trait to hide thoughts, emotions, began.
Speak and be brought into pits of embarrassment, hurt and hate?
The enjoyment of hiding, an escape.
A life sentence in confined silence -
Everything
Internalized.
Problems, actions, reactions, actions to be, thoughts and emotions occurring and to be, all internalized.
Unaware the implications were to be damaging later,
He proceeded to master the skills to hide in plain sight.
An arduous battle,
An escape from confinement to undo the silence,
Creating immunity to criticisms and differing opinions began.
Not without heightened defenses to new pressures,
Success was found.
Attempts made,
Success found,
Won battles,
The internal struggle of war with self continues at dreadful paces.
Thoughts to control past silence must always be on the offensive.
Control the defensive,
The strong silence.
Perhaps always and forever.