Corroded and corrupt minds
Blather away at accompanying tables.  
Loose lips tell tales of loose hips and wide smiles.
The chortle together, mimicking that of a ****** of crows.
Their chairs creak and moan under the weight of their girdles.
Fat men of lowly stature
Tell exuberant narratives of lives never truly lived.
Each one trying to out do the others,
With words longer than their *****.

Because of you,
I yearn for any touch that can wipe yours out of my pours.
Your sickly sweet words impale my mind, already rot with uncertainty.
Because of you,
Lucy, Molly, and that sassy ***** are my best friends.
Who needs people when you can just get high instead?
Because of you,
I can't walk down the street without shuddering at the thought
of seeing you
just
around
the corner.
Because of you,
I tried to **** myself.
Just to rid your face from the inside of my eyelids,
and pull each syllable of your voice from my eardrums.
I wanted to badly to let the wheel roll to the left
And my momentum carry me over the cliff side.
But yet,
Here I am today.
Because of you,
I can't be free
Because of you,
I can't be whole.

All I do is annoy
Annoy
Annoy
I try so hard to impress and comply
But nothing I say is right
And nothing I do is good enough
My body is built from rubble and mud
Nothing graceful or fine

My hair is tangled branches
My lips cracked and creviced
I fill up too much space
And take up too much time
I'm not worth anything
To anyone
At any time
In any place
As soon as I leave they all breath a sigh of relief
She's gone
Finally

Sticks and stones may break my bones,
But words will always hurt me.

I write about real things
I write about things that happen
Things that I see
Things that I feel
I write about my emotions
I write about my life
I write about being ****** up
Being not enough
Being too much

I wish I could write about more
I wish I could write something new
Something exotic
Something mesmerizing
Anything outside my realm
But my head is so boring
My life so average
No wonder no one is interested

F.G.
she is the sun
blindingly bright
her laugh fills a room with sparks
and her smile ignites a wildfire
red is her color
the red of mountain roses
and the embers of shakily rolled cigarettes
she smells of incense and honey suckle
and warm is her heart
constant reassurance of beauty and grace
she is my wild child
my forest sprite
straight from the start


G.D.
she is my moon
shrouding me in serenity
darkness surrounding
holding me tight
she pulls the tides of my heart
to and fro
here we go
wrap me up and settle
her color is black
but it's the black of the deepest ocean and
it's the black that holds you close in the middle of the night
she keeps you safe
and protected
she is the wolf
always watching
always there
forever mine

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
And while you were gone,
I came to realize how much you mean to me.
I've never felt a love as strong as this.
You are home.
You are peace and tranquility.
You are comfort, you are joy.
I'm in best friend love with you,
But it's even more than that.
You make me feel whole,you make me feel worth something.
You make me feel like I matter.
Your smile, your laugh, your glow.
You're everything, my everything.

I've never felt a love like this,
And I'm never letting go.

The moon rises as the sun sets.
My love for you grows as my love for myself fades.
I pick flower petals, taking their life but press them to conserve the beauty.  
As I die I keep myself compressed so you can't see the insides rotting.
I'm infected by the plague.
I wish I could take a flame to my skin and burn of the parts of myself I dislike, but then there wouldn't be any of me left.
I wish I could swallow a cup full of acid to melt away the thoughts of not being good enough, but then my mind would be gone.
I wish I could cover my body in acrylic paint, so that maybe then I would like the way I look, but there's not enough paint in the world to keep my eyes from seeing my reflection in the mirror.
I wish I could see myself through others' eyes.
I wish I could become a tree, and stretch my branches into the sky to soak in the sun and invite other creatures to take safety in my branches.
I wish I could be the sea, to have my presence give life to all others.
I wish I could be the moon, to watch the pulsing energy of life passing by below me and have the power to pull the tides to and fro.
I wish I could be me, and happy at the same time.