Time passes by, and still no word.
My friends simply ask me if I have heard.
They say you speak to them all the time.
So why did we have to stop on a dime?

I wasn't the one who broke your heart.
I'm not saying I'm innocent, I did play my part.
You were the one who wanted this to end.
I thought giving you space would help you mend.

Before all this, you said you would always care.
A shoulder to lean on, you'd always be there.
But now you're gone, and I can finally see.
That all of the fault truly falls on me.

Brooding behind a veil of false happiness,
I smile and wave for the masses.
Never revealing my true madness,
The people laugh and sit on their *****.

I say "Excuse me miss, but your vanity is showing,"
She covers her chest and calls me a pig.
Her brightest color is now truly glowing,
The red of evil hidden in her blonde wig.

I've had enough of this anger and regret,
So I throw my sorrow to the sea.
Let it fall as the sun will set,
And watch it sink with all my misery.

I'll find structure among the destruction,
And settle where others dare not to go.
I'll find some truth within the corruption,
And find my true colors to show.

Your spirit is that of a flower child,
With dandelion dreams in your heart.
Your personality is your canvas,
Truly a work of art.

I want to help pollinate your dreams,
Flowing in the breeze of change.
You deserve the harvest of success,
That comes from anything in range.

Your voice is a song from the past,
Full of passion and harmonic bliss.
The only instrument needed is love,
A symphony will come from a kiss.

Nothing else I could say would suffice,
For you deserve everything and more.
I could dedicate the world to you,
But that would never even the score.

We search for better means to end out pain,
But it's these drugs that keep us sane.
Numb to it all, we simply exist.
That escape from it all we just can't resist.
Scared of the world, we cower in fear.
Hoping that the end is truly near.
The truth of it all, we know to be just.
The feeling of emptiness, ready to bust.
But we bottle them up, mask them with lies.
To hope they can't see through our dark eyes.

As I become a memory, you become a verse.
The burden that you bear for me
Becomes a new day's curse.
We gave each other everything: time, faith, and trust.
We ignored the song of loneliness,
The scent and allure of lust.

As the scene shifted, your role began to change.
Your commitment felt lifted,
Your affection felt strange.
The shot clock expired, the title match done...
After the events that transpired,
You also lost your sense of fun.

So what's next for me, I don't know.
The things I want to see,
The places I want to go.
All of these things I will firmly hold true.
But the joy these will bring,
Won't match the joy I got from you.

My real emotion and feelings hide,
I struggle to keep it all inside.
Behind the words of discontent,
Behind the voice of dissonance.
Behind the scent of false allure,
Behind the scope of what's impure.
Behind the hopes that never last,
Behind the fears from my past.
Behind the smile of a million lies,
Behind the glance of sullen eyes.
Behind it all you may finally see,
The struggle that rages inside of me.

I want to be swept away by a hurricane,

Caught, tangled, broken in two.

Thrown out onto a fault line,

Splitting the world in half,

Descending into your madness and Hell.

I want to go to war alone,

Making as much noise as I can.

Running through a minefield,

Equipped with only a pistol,

And a shot reserved for you.

I want to burn out, alone and cold.

Caught in contradictory parallel miseries.

Being driven completely insane,

By the memories that remain, 

And everything else you forgot.

I want a lot of things,

But what I want the most,

Is for you to give me back,

Something you never planned to take,

My peace of mind.