noelle

noelle Nov 2020

how

i don't want to sleep,
but i don't want to be awake.
i don't want to eat,
but i don't want to be hungry.
i don't want people around me,
but i don't want to be alone.

i want to stop existing,
but i don't want to die.

how the ****
do i get out
of my head?

noelle Nov 2020

hazel eyes

your hazel eyes
and beaming smile
make my day
a little better

noelle Nov 2020

drained

i no longer have motivation
for things that once
kept me alive.

what do i do
when that one thing
doesn't help anymore?

i'm trapped.
someone get me out
of this draining cycle.

noelle Nov 2020

breathing

i'm still breathing
and i can't tell
if that's good or bad.

noelle Nov 2020

trust

you say all these things;
the things i want to hear.
but why don't i believe you?

because she ****** me up;
she lied,
and now i don't believe you.

i wish i did

noelle Nov 2020

validation