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noelle Sep 2020
oh, to be at the train tracks in the dead of night,
after being trapped in my tiny box.

i feel the air rush through my hair
when it passes by on the rail.

it’s ethereal;
it’s too good for this world.
maybe my next life will be as perfect
as the moon’s reflection on this small puddle
my feet soak in.

the pavement feels cool,
just like the breeze.

my last moment at the train tracks,
in the dead of night,
was better than anything i ever experienced
on this cruel earth.
noelle Sep 2020
it’s buried away,
and you know it.
that secret - that truth -
you can’t even admit to yourself.

do you not want things to change?
maybe you don’t want it to be true.
but it eats away at your body,
until there is barely anything left.

deny, deny, deny!
but why?
someone has the key
to the mystery
locked up in your mind.
noelle Sep 2020
the joy, grief, and comfort you provide me...

you shine when i can’t do so.
your brightness stings my soul.
only you can possibly know
what happens in the nighttime.

i envy you;
an object that can withstand forceful winds,
and the coldest of nights.

i look out to you
and hope i can find some clarity
on the darkest thoughts
that roam my mind.

i search for my true identity;
a search that may be endless,
but I must try.

if only I could be a sturdy streetlight,
planted in the earth,
instead of my head in the clouds.
noelle Sep 2020
it took me one year just to say it.
the L word
meant nothing to me
until you.

it’s probably not what you think.
the L word
is not something
many people worry about.
but I did when I met you.

i’m a lesbian, mom.
i hope you still love me...
because I love her.
noelle Sep 2020
it’s my birthday tomorrow.
why am I celebrating my life
when I don’t want one anymore?

this feels like just another dreadful day.
i stare at my birthday candle
in a longing daze.

everyone asks what my wish was,
but if i tell them
it won’t come true.

i wished for it to appear as an accident;
like it was not my precise intention.

— The End —