heartbreak.
heartache.
when will all of this go away for gods sake?

do i tell you goodbye,
or end it in this lie?
either way i just want to die.

ive messed up this time.
there is no fixing this crime.
no flipping a dime,
to solve this in prime.

i guess ill just walk away.
i so badly want to stay,
but i know that is not possible in any way.
i-i just dont know what to say.

im sorry.

(a.b)

i wanted so badly
to be as important to you
as you are to me

youll never believe
how much i love you
only because i dont tell

youre my inspiration
my thoughts and my ideas
youre my passion

and im still
nothing
to you

(a.b)

my tormentor
is also known to be
the one who holds me
the one who brightens my smile
faster than he can drive a mile
but with this he had
drawn me to the dark and the bad
making him what ruined me so
leading me to this point with nothing else to do
but hide all emotion and go with what is told
with this it was oh-so bold
that he was my tormentor
that dragged me to and fro
leading me to the dark
holding my hand
leading me deeper
and deeper
into pure nothingness

(a.b)

the demonds were inside of me
dont get me wrong
i didnt want them to win over my mind
not even in the slightest
but all at once i did
it was as if they found my trigger
and they pulled it all the way back
waited for the perfect moment
and with two clicks they released it
releasing the demons
allowing them further into my mind
and into my imagination
making it go wild
the demons were my constant high
only the after affect was worse

(a.b)

what can i say;
the truth hurts
the truth is a never ending battle
of life or death
of pain
tell the truth
tell the lies
either way you'll end up
the bad guy
the lies hurt
the lies are nothing but a sorry excuse
of hurtful agony
of a road leading to despair
tell whatever you please
tell them all
either way they'll wind up
hating you more
than you already do yourself

(a.b)

i looked up to you
the way some would do to god
but due to my flaw of not seeing the light
in my darkest moments
i no longer believed in any god
if there were such a god he or she would have saved me
much the way you did

(a.b)