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Nisha Sep 2018
I keep lying
Yet you keep
forgiving me,

I keep breaking
your heart but
you still love
me unconditionally

I keep crying
and saying
that I'm sorry
but am I really

I keep receiving
chances and
running with
them

not thinking of
the ongoing
damage I do
to myself
more than I
do to you

you guys
never
deserved
this

On my way
to find out
who I am I
destroy
everything in
my path

not looking
back on the
bridges I've
burnt,

In fear of
what I've
become and
the treacherous
things I have
done

I'm so sorry
I keep lying
maybe it's time
I finally go to
therapy so
you and I
can find the
real me
I don't really know the real me anymore
Nisha Aug 2018
A question I seem
to have a difficult
time answering,

it may sound simple
do I Boast
and Brag?
Sometimes,

but Who doesn't,
Is it so wrong
to want
people to lke
me?

or should I just
become lonely
until the sun soon
rises and brings
me wonderful
people
along with
the new day

I just want
to get
the attention
of the
people surrounding me

or maybe even just one?

is it so wrong for
them to get
to know me

so that I
can share the
pain the
broken heart
all of which are
inside me

eating away at
my optimism

gnawing at
the love I used
to be
able to
hand out like
free candy

So to answer this
immorally complicated
question

can I be both?

because I am
I become pretentious
around the
people I want
to impress

and I become
un-conceited
around those
who need love
and compassion

the ones who need
a stranger to
give them
a hug
or a smile

I will continue
to spread
the love
that was
never given
to me

that's all
the world
and I
need

so can
you please
do the
same for
me?
All the world needs is a few more acts of kindness go and buy lunch for someone or just tell them you care for them. Love and Listen those are the two things broken people need most. Most importantly respect yourself and love yourself before you try to do the same for someone else. You won't ever be ready to open up but with every step to becoming less pretentious comes more happiness and love. :)
Nisha Aug 2018
As he walked through the city
he experienced things new
and some versed

some things he saw
and he became apprehensive
second-guessing his decision to explore

Times he stayed and watched
exhilarated by things youthful

Times he would listen to
and become enamored
by which the sounds he could hear

as wandering time passed
he began to lose track of the days
that had passed
Nisha May 2018
A word in her vocabulary she knows very well,

She feels it every day,

Like a knife stabbing her in the back,

The words hurled at her every day,

Thinking of running away,

Wanting to leave everyone behind,

Needing a fresh start,

If only she had the guts to leave...
Nisha May 2018
a word everyone
was forcing down
her throat,

like a parent forcing
medicine down a child's
mouth,

she knows
she needs it but
seems to lack it,

she tries to put a
smile on her face,

don't they know
how hard it is,

to wake up every morning
not loving yourself,

trying to find good
in the world,

shes holding onto
a thread of
courage,

she doesn't need
confidence,

she needs love,

give her the space
to find herself,

understand it won't happen
overnight,

that's all she needs,

so just let her be.
Nisha Apr 2018
I'm tired of all of it

Tired of giving people advice and not having it when i need it.

See the most frustrating part of being tired is that you never really are,

maybe mentally but not physically,

insomnia lurks out of nowhere,

one day your active and happy,

and the next you struggle to find comfort in your friends,

your family,

your peers,

and your bed,

I'm tired of screaming when I know no one can hear,

I feel like I'm trapped in this box,

someone please let me out,

I just want to sleep all day and all night,

but I cant my mind won't let me
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