I'd be lying if I said I had no regrets.
I regret,
All the words and actions that would've been better spent,
Better placed.
I regret,
Inaction, when action was demanded of me,
I regret that the most.
-
To list mistakes, I've made a few.
I regret,
Alison
Alex
Cody
Erica
And Hannah
-
Laura
Lisa
Megan
And Sarah
To name a few.
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But most of all,
I regret you two.

N.H.

We are the few, stuck upon the shoreline of life.
Begging for our ship to sail.
I don’t seek “friends” in this life,
I seek the brotherhood of wolves.
And It feels so good to be king.
Proud.
Someone once said
-
“You die twice.
One time when you stop breathing
and a second time,
a bit later on,
when somebody says your name
for the last time.”
-
And all I could find for a thousand miles
in every direction
was the sound of my very own breath
singing it’s final ode to life.
“Tout est bien.”,
“North is that way.”

N.H.

From now on
there are no more excuses for you
not to become something great.
No more hesitation,
no more self-deception
and no more hiding from yourself.
If you can’t place trust within an oath to yourself,
then you are obsolete.
-
It may seem like wrestling a bear.
But the instant the kodiak lies slain at your feet,
armed with nothing but your bare hands.
You’ll know true metamorphosis,
true rebirth,
true strength
true power.
-
Grow strong,
or die with your face against the asphalt.
Fighters, fight.
I am Fenrir.
Born to destroy.
Give me darkness.
Give me that real sleep,
under blanket of oblivion.

N.H.

Vigilance, sentinel.
Vigilance…
The moment you close your eyes, you let dreams in.
But I am done.
I vaporize all worries and cares,
I disconnect from all earthbound tethers.
I will fly.
Nowhere to go but up,
nothing to lose, and nothing to fear.
-
The first steps to freedom are always the hardest.
To obtain true freedom,
you must make certain sacrifices…
like security.
To grow strong
means to build a castle around your infant self,
to lock the door and hurl the key far out,
over the castle walls.
It is to the distant hope that an innocent someone,
will disregard every brick.
And walk right in
with the key.

N.H.

There is this point that exists in the mind of a wrathful being,
in which expression and inebriation
becomes much alike the process of forcing
the ocean through a keyhole.
-
Every word leaves an angry wake,
like every letter is seared upon my brow.
It seems that every thought that escapes my skull
is branded with poisonous whispers.

N.H.

in·dom·i·ta·ble/inˈdämitəbəl/
Adjective: Impossible to subdue or defeat:
“indomitable spirit”
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That was it,
I understood how to win the game now,
I understood that you had to show them
that a milliliter of your blood,
is worth 5.2 liters of theirs.
-
You are superior.
Never trust the hungry,
and never give a penny.
Your success was built by you,
and you alone.
Unfortunately the parasites come with the package.

N.H.

To no avail.
Time after time I felt like a spent youth,
flailing against the feet of titans.
That is until I grew up,
becoming  somewhat of a titan myself.
You would think that having a gun pointed at your head
would cause one to find it quite hard to think.
But in reality,
it’s likely you've never thought
clearer thoughts
in your
entire
life.

N.H.