Ultra Euphoric Tunnel Time Travel Trance Dance

You can still fake that upwards frown.
But just like the change of pigment in your skin,
the sunshine still knows your heart is not smiling once again.

It's hard being in love with the bird who always flies away
Sometimes he comes back but refuses to make a nest long enough to stay

AND SO IF YOU FIND YOUR EYE LIDS DRAGGIN' LOW,
LET YOUR PUPILS GROW.

I am not afraid to get crazy, loco if you will, or even a little mad
I am not afraid to test my body's worth and pop crazy things in my mouth
Or to tip back and wait for it to hit me right between the eyes
I am not afraid to lay beneath the stars and die in the grass
And let loose there while my skin tingles
and my whole head itches from the ground
I am not afraid to be driven too fast
or to inhale like I haven't a lung left in my whole **** body
I am not afraid of downing drank to my heart's content
Til' I sway and turn in circles and hit the floor
I am not afraid to be in places unknown to me
Or to leave alone with someone I just met
I am not afraid to go to sleep
And have the silly worry about whether I'll wake up the next day
But I can say,
I am afraid I lost you somewhere along the way..

If I crave you, I gots to get you.
I'll make my moves so subtle and so smooth.
I'll flow my words to lure you in, bring you closer my way.
I will do everything in my power to keep you, hold you.
But before I realize I'm the one who got hooked.
Before I can even catch my breath,
kinda like the last summer night you spent getting drunk with your friends,
you're already gone.

It's the...
ZzZzZzZzZz all day
Living it up my way
Cricket noises outside my window
The leaves and how the wind blows
Sun light shining thru the blinds
My life not tied to time
Good book I can't put down
Driving away and skipping town
Homies I'm for till the end
Being high from 10 to 10
Music that lulls me to sleep
Blanket that warms my feet
Phone call that makes me smile
"Stay with me for awhile?"
Smoke in my lungs
Soaking in the sun
Having too much fun
Being with my numero one
Boy that makes my heart jump
My room thats a dump
Sweet talking I want to hear
The tallest places that I fear
Hot tea at 7 o'clock
Smoking a bowl on my dock
Late mornings I crawl out of bed
Hangovers that hurt my head
Late nights I'm far from home
Waking up all alone
One I want to call my own
Getting in the zone
Weekends I lose my mind
$10 for a dime
Last voice before I go to bed
"You're all I'll ever need."
I said.

I drive myself crazy with the thoughts that swirl like a whirlpool in my brain.
Everything is chemical and it drives me ******* mad, drives me straight insane.
I have these dreams with all these people in them.
People I've met, people I've yet to meet, maybe even people I don't know I'll meet.
I always want to tell them that they were there.
I was only sleeping but they were there! I want to tell them.
But I don't.

When my body falls among your night skys
I’ll breathe you until I turn to dust.
And there we lay,
Crystal star-gazing eyes
With feelings of smooth warm thighs
Uncovered by untold lies.
Flowing into the forest, out in search of a home
A place to intertwine, a place to call our own
We made the woods our bed,
And soon melted into the earth.

When I Leave, My Soul Shall Go Wherever She Please

We became like shoelaces
Bodies intertwined at the seams
But when I untangled from your arms
It was like arising from the sweetest dream

My darling,
Open your eyes to view this most precious prize
Feel your way, there's no need to hide
Gulp to swallow this new found pride
And please know what you search for I've seen radiates on from the inside
You know this is not the end
Here your souls lies; Dormant, swirling, pooling, only waiting to begin
You seek the outer limits, a space to call your own
But still you cannot see my love for inside you is your natural home
You ponder in the thoughts of never ending strife
Why am I here? Who am I? How can I rid of this life?
The pain you only feel is blind to those with closed eyes
While laying in a bed of flower and dirt gazing starry skies
Well I tell you the answer is near
Yes it shall come only too soon
Once you find out the you lost within is what was always in tune

Well I think I'll just go crazy
I think I'll just lose my mind
I think I'll just stay in bed today
Yeah, that's how I'll spend my time
This mad brain won't forget you
Believe me, I've almost got it to try
By smoking & dosing & gulping everything man has made & of earth alive

I promise you,
my eyes are wide open
and I've also slept to slumber to dream to see
even the things in my mind I cannot change
and that is the piece of me that even frightens the being that is me

As soon as you showed that amateur pain
It still was all the same
I tried to keep you
My Yin to my Yang

I hope you're learning to listen and I hope you're learning to stay.
And I hope you're making it a mission to clean up every mess you've made.
I hope you're growing, viciously like a vine and I hope you now realize the pain you feel is the same as mine.
And I hope one day that you'll see that I AM THE ORIGINAL. Always have been. Always will be.
I hope your heart is healing. God knows my hollow one needs it too.
And I hope one day you'll realize I'm the one who writes the poems for you.
The turtle in the shell who peaks his head of his hollow cave
and has just enough time to put his spell on me before he hides again and goes away.
The wounds that you've reopened and the feelings you cannot see are what keep me awake at night
and torture the being that is me.
When all the times I've told you I love you, well I mean it until I die
and my body becomes the cosmic dust that lights up your starry sky.
Why you are in confusion I can very well tell that you've created your own creature
and lit the fires to your own personal Hell.
As I stand by softly watching just as I always have.
I'll never leave you Darling, even if it is your fire that into I am dragged.
What this hold is you have over me I cannot say but its something like when the Sun rises over the Ocean
but you know the Moon still never goes away.
My dreams are almost nightmares stained with your beautiful face
and keep me trapped in limbo without hope of escape.
I think of you always, wondering what could've been
Like the story of Happily Ever After only with a painful twist.
He always leaves her wandering but resurfaces at the convenience of his pain
and then once again abandons her beautifully feeling like a rainbow in the rain;
You cannot see her tears and he gives no umbrella to keep her safe.
So the story of you and I, it can never be written in stone until you realize Darling,
inside you is your natural Home.
I will be here waiting, choking on the smoke of every fire you started and promises you broke.
This creature you say you are is only a reflection of your mind,
tattered and broken yet still one of a kind.
I see no creature, but a boy who is afraid of the world that surrounds him that will eventually be his grave.
I know I will love you forever because in our past lives I did just the same.
I never stopped loving you. You just forced me to bury it away.
So when you lay there at night and contemplate all that you've done,
the lies you've told and the battles you've won.
The eyes that you look into and tell them that you miss.
The lips you ponder and cannot help but kiss.
The hope that you give to me but always take away.
And all the reasons why I never stop loving you even when in your shell you go to hide and stay.
So I hope that you're learning and I hope one day you'll see that when I said "Forever."
that's how I planned it to be.

How does the look in your eyes seem so free?
And you nap on the bench for hours
and wish to acquire much needed affection all so carefully carelessly.
And I guess I see kitty cat,
you are no different from me.

I want to tell you all of my greatest stories.
So you think I'm something worth something.
But I'd like to be that top shelf item you reach for,
See the price tag
(For items do not know their own worth.)
And say,
"This one is good.
         Yes, this one will suit me best."
And then you'd take me home and put me on your lonely mantle
And at night, I'd watch you drown yourself in bottles of courage
And warm your bones by the fire I now rest above.
How love looks from afar.
Then I'd whisper,
"Hey it's not just the flames. I told you you still had your glow."

They said "Go away. There's no room in this place for your kind here."
So we ran off and thought, "Hell. Ain't no room in that place for our kind there
And ain't no of their kind in the room of our place here."
So we lived out beautifully made up lives together and no one was around to tell our story,
even long after we were gone.
There just wasn't any room for their kind around our place.
And we liked it that way.

I tap my 3rd eye in hopes it will awaken and free me of all duality thoughts and consciousness.
But I guess now I know why there's so many ******* around.
Very few people would be accustomed to crowds of beings walking the streets with 3 eyes.

I am the problem with no solution
And I feel deeply I shall stay this way until my physical departure.
But with problems you see,
I am just like any other.
Too cowardly to face the truth
And too bashful to say "**** it." and start all over again.
No that is my problem.
And maybe some day the sum will strike me right in the face
Like times when you're tripping off hallucinogens and suddenly it's resolved.
Why was it so difficult in the first place?
That's the problem...Nobody really knows.

Hours drift by unknowingly to me.
I just can't cut to the chase and my dreams hold no possible chance for resolution either.
And your poetry book I have just now finished,
You know the one you let me borrow the first time
But something in your brain went awry and we were both sad.
Only you still had your glow and mine burnt out sometime ago.
And so anyway, you wanted rid of me but that book you wanted to keep.
So I returned it prompt and it's full pages still blank to me.
Well now here I am back with this poetry book.
Cuz I guess you thought of me as like the words written and you wanted to read and keep me again many times.
Even though we both know I never gave myself for anyone else to play keeps with.
And the book that had to be returned, well it found it's way back into my life again.
You set it on my purse right before I left.
You said "Take it."
Which sounded too familiar to me for I thought the same lines over in my head
Every time I stare into your Ocean eyes
"Take it." I say in my mind
And then you do.
And I live the pain of holding whats not really mine,
Just like this **** book that found it's way into my hands again
That oddly I shall return for a second time
"Take it." and then you will.
And now I am awake & finished & unknowing what to now do at 4:17am
& the People Do Look Like Flowers At Last
Taking it for all it's worth with this ****** good poetry of paper resting it's face on my chest
In the spot where yours should be.

These butterflies that refuse to subside
Have left me wondering why
I leave myself in such a state
As only you did just the same

I see in you the light the world needs to see
Your brilliant mind is that of organized chaos, a need for affection
and the final fear that it could be right on front of you
Scared little boy,
I'll love you even when you're blue

Create to emulate the light that hides inside
Show your true self
And no longer let the Glow subside
I see this in you
And you shall falter no more
For the ways of the wicked have Karmic flaws under their belts
Deceiving and perceiving thinking its only a dream they felt
But I know the truth
Yes I know all too well
In the consumption of your Soul which has quite a story of it's own to tell
And I will forever listen to the Tale of the Tell Tall Heart
To make you realize Darling
We have never been far apart
Always right here in the space of your chest that collects the dusted memories
Even the ones we didn't know we'd make yet
And all the suffering and all the pain I lived through for you
Just to catch a glimpse of those Ocean eyes again
And sparked my light so I could show you the way
And in turn help you with this Karmic debt you must pay
And in accordance to this tab of past lives and present
Well we lived through all of them Darling
I don't want to know a life that doesn't

So to hide these scars that rattle the demon inside
& Shake our frightened bones
We make a toast!

Whisper sweet words from your lips
As I sense the inebriation from the waves of your hips
That move like the Ocean
Swaying and drowning me in
Two Souls born
And now only one remains within
As we join in together like rising tides of the Sea
And you flow your loving arms around me
Like the roots from a tree

Shaking smiles always hide away
Shy and stubborn they know no other way
When a Soul sees into a Soul its a beautiful thing
To see more to feel
And all the while keep a steady breathing
When eyes connect and lock in place
When vibrations flow and fill your empty space
When my browns met your blues and washed out the invisible room
And kept in motion more than the Ocean follows the Moon
And you closed your eyes and music filled the tide
And all the while I couldn't stop staring with my own wide opened eyes
And beauty resonated there in the cove by the bay of the beach that hugs the Ocean
Where I saw the One who swept me away
Why I didn't make motion of what my heart wanted to say
Couldn't make my frightened bones move your way
So now they'll forever wonder why they were so foolish
As to why the movement wasn't made
To the One in front who had the Golden Cosmic Way
I was blinded by the light I adored and so I couldn't see
That maybe I wasn't the only one who could think you were meant for me

Take my tattered wings and learn how to fly
Reach the cosmos, past the sky
Go to the moon
Take a dip in sparkled specks of space
No place like this
In the mist I'll sit and wait
In four walled rooms with no ceilings attached
Like endless hallways with wallpapers that don't match
Relax and float down stream on Neptune's rings
Sipping moon beams
Snorting moon dust
Huffing moon musk
Feeling reborn
But stuck in the middle, the cusp

They think they know
But they don't
They think they feel
But they won't
They think they breathe
And they think they see
But their eyes will forever be clouded
To someone like me

This old new rush is back again
And I try to grasp the meaning behind it all
I was a fool for what I did and for what I didn't do
You didn't know I existed
And myself I kept hid away from you
What came over me I can't begin to explain
But something held me back on that beach in the rain
For when I first saw you, my heart skipped a rope and jumped a beat
I stood there barefoot and dumbfounded
Have I spotted the One?
I'm a fool, I'm a fool I can't begin to explain
When one is so taken aback by watching beauty play in the rain
Your music lifted me up and carried me away
On that beach that hugs the Ocean, I wish I could forever stay
And listen to you create music with your blue eyes on me
And live this night for always in a tent by the Sea

Waves crash and the water swirls and pools around my feet
Lovely thoughts rush of you
A straight shot to the head
I take them from my cranial memoirs
And cast them into the Sea
Never to be brought back again
Buried in the salty sands of the bottomless pit
That reminds me of me
And forever silently sleeping
Is what the Sea tells me, breezily, its meant to be

His green eyes gleam and reflect the light,
Like the moon shines down on a chill autumn's night
I watch his face as he dreams his dreams
And wonder what he's seeing, if he sees me
He leaves me in awe and then goes away,
Sometimes to a dark place that I am not welcome to stay
Keep me in the cracks of your ever escaping mind, just as you to I
And let our memories seep out like rain from sky
Smiles so sweet and visions so true
Who knew this masterpiece was so askew
Like a painting that changes and morphs over time
Only the colors get brighter and more vivid are the lines
He's a creation in the making
Got me shaking so much
Just from drowning in the Ocean eyes of a masterpiece
So real you can touch

For time has no ending
As tides do not disappoint to rise
In the sunset's gleaming meeting
Like when earth greets sky
And ancient times continued sending
On the ride where earth is in demise
The moon soundly sleeping
With stars floating in her eyes
As time is briskly sailing
In hopes to race the tide