I am the vehicle. You are the tree.
Drove right into your roots, acquired some dents in me.
Never considered the collision. So inebriated was my vision.

I took the paints of my fractured pallet and spread them.
I splattered & mixed & even invented some shades no one had seen yet.
I made the sunrise the ocean
and turned the sun into the moon.
I even took the stars from the sky
and made them think they were fireflies too.
I took the West and flipped it East.
I took away the hunger of the Dead Sea and gave it some fish to feast.
I took the North and made it South.
& soon they all became one.
This all was a plan.
Yes, I knew what I had done;
For after the surroundings shifted,
there you were standing before me under a moon that thought it was the sun.
(As the stars danced around us in the day at night
& the fireflies fluttered in the space above us
looking for the light of one another to guide
and hold so tight.)

Scatter me away just like dust in the wind.
Make my body apart of the Earth again.
So I can see clearly all I have loved so dear
& be with you always, all over, everywhere.

And so like cosmic dust we both disintegrated and flew away.
Far above the stars, clouds & sea to escape the worn out people
& the ugly faces they make at you & me.
We traveled together, off on our own,
inside these beautifully twisted minds that give growth to our Souls.
Lost in the sparkles of eyes and lost among the billions of stars in the sky.
A dream that came to be almost too true.
I awoke.
In a beaten down, roach infested motel room.
I had realized my mistake and the misfortune of knowing
that something as simple as a hazy-eyed dream
is enough to make your world shake.
The mind wanders in the cracks of infested moments of Love, Lust & Loss.
Feeding off the memories, even the ones you thought you forgot.
I laid there alone in my head.
Alone in this bed.
3:49am does nothing for a too sober insomniac just awakening from the most sweetest dream.
Darkness sets & waits in every corner.
It keeps me company and I think, "Why didn't you come sooner?"
Because darkness is always the same.
Even the Earth can't compete; for come Autumn time it's surroundings start to change.
So I like it this way and darkness I became.
Until I close my eyes
& wait for the chemicals to set in
& the hope for that movie in my brain to press start and change my view of this place
and fade away all that makes me insane
as I travel to the space where cosmic dust you & I became.

I've never been in love before
So if you please, I'd like to settle the score
O the material things of course you can have them back
They are of no use to me now
As all I have left of you is a book bound with some beautiful words and paper inside
And my insides
Well they tell almost the same drunken romantic story, just like how Bukowski planned it
And we both liked it that way
But you sir
It's time to settle the score
Can I get back the constant beat of racing hearts? And that walk through the woods?
You led me and I followed you through and through
Into the dark I will always follow you
Never mind that, time to settle the score
So in turn with these debts of karmic lives past and present
You have some things I gave away that I wasn't quite ready to lose yet
A thousand stares in to your eyes when you bid me all those goodbyes
And the millions of tears ****** back but ended up finding their way out the pockets of the holes to my Soul
And they would not subside, they will not subside
To settle the score even deeper let's talk about flesh
O this is a sore subject for most, and I haven't even gotten to the good parts yet
As skin and bones and meat and muscles and things and your hand slid to that small of my back
Well they all seemed to melt into each other, like the language of love learned fluently, as if we became attached
And your mouth would part open just a bit as you took your other hand and drowned me and I washed you in
And you knew the way and I could feel it too
And never not once had to tell you how to touch
It was like our bodies were crafted for each other, just as such
And all the time in the world didn't seem enough and I was always the last one to fall asleep
And sometimes during the night I would awake and look and you were still there by my side
And you were the most beautiful thing I had ever seen with these swollen eyes
Not moon in the night nor sun in the day could compare to that sleepyhead and his face
And the mornings when we would rise together at the same time and give praise to the long gone night
In thanks of another new day to begin with you
I guess I can't settle the score
Never have never will
I love you so much
Come back to me
Come Home

If you could only feel my love, feel it in the air
If you could only take my love and make me feel like yours is there
If you could only feel my love, it's the kind that grows with old age
If you could only feel my love, maybe you would have stayed
If you could only feel my love, it takes silence into sound
It's enough to make the earth tilt and shake up the ground
If you could only see my love dripping out my every pore
Seeping into the Ocean, swimming for your shore
A drifting little boat lost out at Sea,
Searching for your lighthouse, the shining one that guides me
If you could only feel my love maybe things would change
And this girl left abandoned so beautifully wouldn't feel like a rainbow in the rain
If you could only feel my love, a hurricane with its force
And take the look in my eyes so seriously maybe we could change our course
Enough to move mountains and take the moon from the sky
But my love only created this ripple affect and here I am left alone wondering why

Black holes,
where the windows to her Soul,
used to be.