I am the problem with no solution
And I feel deeply I shall stay this way until my physical departure.
But with problems you see,
I am just like any other.
Too cowardly to face the truth
And too bashful to say "**** it." and start all over again.
No that is my problem.
And maybe some day the sum will strike me right in the face
Like times when you're tripping off hallucinogens and suddenly it's resolved.
Why was it so difficult in the first place?
That's the problem...Nobody really knows.

Hours drift by unknowingly to me.
I just can't cut to the chase and my dreams hold no possible chance for resolution either.
And your poetry book I have just now finished,
You know the one you let me borrow the first time
But something in your brain went awry and we were both sad.
Only you still had your glow and mine burnt out sometime ago.
And so anyway, you wanted rid of me but that book you wanted to keep.
So I returned it prompt and it's full pages still blank to me.
Well now here I am back with this poetry book.
Cuz I guess you thought of me as like the words written and you wanted to read and keep me again many times.
Even though we both know I never gave myself for anyone else to play keeps with.
And the book that had to be returned, well it found it's way back into my life again.
You set it on my purse right before I left.
You said "Take it."
Which sounded too familiar to me for I thought the same lines over in my head
Every time I stare into your Ocean eyes
"Take it." I say in my mind
And then you do.
And I live the pain of holding whats not really mine,
Just like this **** book that found it's way into my hands again
That oddly I shall return for a second time
"Take it." and then you will.
And now I am awake & finished & unknowing what to now do at 4:17am
& the People Do Look Like Flowers At Last
Taking it for all it's worth with this ****** good poetry of paper resting it's face on my chest
In the spot where yours should be.

These butterflies that refuse to subside
Have left me wondering why
I leave myself in such a state
As only you did just the same

I see in you the light the world needs to see
Your brilliant mind is that of organized chaos, a need for affection
and the final fear that it could be right on front of you
Scared little boy,
I'll love you even when you're blue

Create to emulate the light that hides inside
Show your true self
And no longer let the Glow subside
I see this in you
And you shall falter no more
For the ways of the wicked have Karmic flaws under their belts
Deceiving and perceiving thinking its only a dream they felt
But I know the truth
Yes I know all too well
In the consumption of your Soul which has quite a story of it's own to tell
And I will forever listen to the Tale of the Tell Tall Heart
To make you realize Darling
We have never been far apart
Always right here in the space of your chest that collects the dusted memories
Even the ones we didn't know we'd make yet
And all the suffering and all the pain I lived through for you
Just to catch a glimpse of those Ocean eyes again
And sparked my light so I could show you the way
And in turn help you with this Karmic debt you must pay
And in accordance to this tab of past lives and present
Well we lived through all of them Darling
I don't want to know a life that doesn't

So to hide these scars that rattle the demon inside
& Shake our frightened bones
We make a toast!

Whisper sweet words from your lips
As I sense the inebriation from the waves of your hips
That move like the Ocean
Swaying and drowning me in
Two Souls born
And now only one remains within
As we join in together like rising tides of the Sea
And you flow your loving arms around me
Like the roots from a tree