I can't fit you in my schedule,
For I have no time,
There's always something on,
That needs my attention or involvement.

That doesn't mean,
I wouldn't make time for you,
That doesn't mean,
I don't want to spend time with you,
That doesn't mean,
I don't care about you.

For you I would drop everything,
I would give you my last cent,
My last piece of food,
My last breath.

I just need more time.

The sun is shining,
And the birds are in the trees.
You're my silver lining,
Our love is such a breeze.
That **** smile,
I can’t help but adore.
Stay with me a while,
Cuddling on the floor.

We can watch the sunset,
As the world goes into night.
Don’t have a single regret,
Just you and me insight.
We belong together,
Forever and ever.
In any weather,
You’re my best endeavour.

I need to lean on you,
Maybe you need me too.
I can tell you all,
Whether big or small,
And it seems like you are listening.

You can't answer back,
But you get me on track,
Your eyes tell me all I need,
As you always lead,
Me to a smile.

He is small in size,
But his heart is wise.
I can see him in the street,
Walking with his feet.
To a destination unknown,
And a life unshown,
To all but me.

I can see in his mind,
And watch his story unwind,
One of struggle and pain,
But he recovers again.
A shy smile on his face,
And a slow walking pace.

I can feel his determination,
To move away from this cruel nation,
"One day" He reminds himself,
One day.

Take the opportunity,
To give it a go.
Were not talking stupid things
But how wrong is fun.
A night out is what we need,
Time to break free of routine.
Drinking games and being crazy,
Seems so unnatural.
Maturity can only last so long,
With good friends all around.

There are scars on my skin,
My body is too thin,
And My hair isn't perfect,
I've already checked.

My eyebrows too bold
Personality too cold,
It's all in my head,
Because of the what she said.

The stories are one and the same,
Bullying to cause shame,
But they don't realise the pain,
As long as there's popularity to gain.

Words are vicious in more ways then one,
Imagine if this was your son,
Or your daughter,
Put up for slaughter.

Maybe your friend who hurts inside,
Each day she cried.
She chose to hide it,
Had a crushed spirit,
And she's not here any more.

Should I believe in you?
Maybe it would be good to,
Have someone controlling things,
Someone protecting my heart strings.

Dear god, if your listening,
The ocean is glistening,
As I sit and watch it,
Is this your spirit?

Do you even exist?
Or is it just a twist,
In the fairytale.

There is a heaven up there,
Or so they say, it could be bare,
But they don't care,
Because they have their spirituality.

I'm all alone now,
Sitting in the dark,
I lost the spark
In my eyes.

I can't see the other side,
Of the room in which I hide.
It's so quite and cold,
As I try to hold
The remainders of my heart.

A wave of sorrow hits me,
Now I can not see.
I can hear how his voice sounded,
The pain keeps me grounded.

Wishing he was here with me,
Back then how we use to be,
In love and happy,
And downright sappy.

It's all over now,
As I loudly vow,
To love him always,
Through these hallways.

But there is only me.

The tears stream down my face
And fall on my pillowcase.

The weight of the world is on my shoulders,
Like two massive boulders.

Why is it this hard,
Am I really this scarred?
On the inside only,
My quiet words are lonely.

Is it normal to feel this way?
And to keep my friends at bay,
From the truth in my heart,
No it's not very smart.
But it's what I do.

I feel ugly and weak,
I guess I am a major freak,
Someone so far from normal,
With no date to the formal.

A smile is put on my face,
To cover up every trace
Of insecurities.

It's been a while now,maybe a year,
You need to move on my dear.
She is gone,
And she's not coming back,
I need to get you on track.

Don't you know it's not your fault,
Put your mind at halt,
What happened to her,
Doesn't define what you were.

At her funeral you tried,
To keep your spirits high,
You keep asking yourself why.

Something inside you died,
Along with your wife,
And the rest of your life,
Has changed forever.

She was sixteen in this crazy world
She had big dreams and her hair was curled
Just a young daddy's girl,
Who loved to twirl.

Her dream was to be a dancer,
But she couldn't find the answer,
How to get to the top,
Without getting dropped.

Her spirit was strong,
As she would sing along,
To her favourite song.

Tragedy struck,
A case of bad luck,
She broke her back,
And her spirit began to lack.

Her sister helped her through,
And she knew,
She would reach it someday,
Maybe not today,
But in the future.

Put your problems on the shelf
Be happy with who you are,
And get back in that car,
Get back on that road
Before your heart explodes,
And before your mind imploades.

You are so unique,
Don't say that you are weak.
You are special to someone,
Don't feel so undone.
You are special to me,
Even if you don't see.
You are beautiful.

That smile that lights up the whole room,
And the frown that comes on way too soon.
There are so many great things about you,
So I will always be there right on cue.
If you are there for me too.

As I sit on this beautiful golden sand,
I notice no one else is on this land,
But even the horizon can't stop the pain,
I came out here wishing for something to gain.
The only sounds are the waves and the trees,
And possibly the faint hum of a bumble bee.

If I go back now will it be the same as before,
I'm probably just hoping and imagining more.
Change is good in the eyes of some,
Hiding out here is just plain dumb.
There are some things in life you just can't fix,
Like a whole in a wall made of bricks.
Sometimes I wish for faith in god,
Maybe if try it won't be quite so odd,
But you can't make yourself believe,
And my soul is to hard to retrieve.

It's time to meet the harsh reality I'm facing,
No matter what, the truth will come chasing.
I need to leave my secluded quiet zone,
To be greeted by the ringing phone.
Friends will give great sympathy,
but they're not the ones that lost their family.

The walls are crashing down around me
But I can't hear a sound.
The strength and life is over,
As I'm punched into the ground.
I wish for something better
And someone to lend a hand
Why wish in something impossible?
I know it can't be found.
Be strong and stand your ground,
Is what people always say,
How can he hurt me over and over again.
The bruises will go away in time,
But out of this hole I need to climb.
Excuses become a reality and I'm always on edge,
If someone finds out what he does I'll most likely end up dead.
His apologies mean nothing,
But they seem to **** me in,
Time and time again, I'm trapped in this world.
I fall for his charm and how sweet he can be,
I forget about the pain that he causes me.
A strong woman would have left him,
So I guess I'm not that strong,
I will stay scared and alone.
Until one day when someone rescues me,
I'll remain the girl that can't fight for happiness.

I can see the pain hidden behind your eyes,
Behind your well rehearsed fake smile.
I can see the hurt in your see through soul.
And the anger building from below.
I want to help you, but I don't know how,
No one else can see the truth,
Why can't they see it?
It's right in front of them.
Maybe the fact that I can see,
Will make myself the person you need.
I will help you,
No more hiding anymore.
Be yourself and I will show you,
How truly amazing you are.
You are not alone.
And don't you ever believe,
That you're not worth it.

The numbness is there,
And will not disappear,
I guess it's a good thing,
Like the way he use to sing.

There is a void in my heart,
With each day it's ripped apart,
I should be thankful for the time we had,
The pictures everywhere are making me sad.

He promised me a life together,
And that he would change the weather,
But now he's gone,
I thought he was the one.

His smile lit up the place,
The way he planted kisses on my face,
Everything about him was perfect,
Was all our love worth it?

The funeral is tomorrow,
Which will be filled with sorrow,
I will never forget you my love,
I hope your looking down from above.

Rest in peace baby.

As I look into the mirror, all that I can see,
Is an ugly human being staring back at me.
My smile is a disguise,
Which may come as a surprise.
Mirrors can hide,
The other side
Of me.

I act everyday of my life,
Which hasn't caused much strife,
Because all they can see,
Is who I pretend to be.

Things aren't always easy,
Life quotes are really cheesy.
No one can help me at all,
No matter who I call.

Being a teen in this day and age,
Can cause some serious rage,
And the occasional fight,
We'll I'm normally right.

So what I'm trying to say.
Is that each and everyday
I will hate myself.