I'm just an adolescent,
I can't change the world
For I am a complete catastrophe,
A fail,
A self absorbed human being.

I have been dismantled,
Often wretched with over emotion,
And am in desperate need of a friend.
Some one to understand me
And help me to be completely euphoric.

I can be materialistic and love diamante,
I am engraved with personality,
I AM NOT FAKE!
Pale white skin not bronzed,
I just want to add gloss,
I'm not a barbie.

My work is a beautiful disaster.
So pointless yet so great,
Ugly and amazing,
Stupid and genius.

My painting shows me,
The way I express myself.
Little pieces of my soul on the canvas,
Left for the world to see.

My drawing is all that I am,
All that I see,
And all that I feel.

Creativity has saved me,
Helped me find who I am.
Showed me how to get out,
The things that are trapped inside.
Buried deep below,waiting,hiding
Where no one can find it.

Through drawing,painting and writing.
I am a beautiful disaster.

Driving to my uncle's farm
Over in Rata.
The trip feels so much shorter then usual,
Excitement building up inside.

As we reach the house and get out of the car,
We go to meet her.
Rose.
The most beautiful dog in all the land,
So happy and so healthy.
The way she ran around the paddock,
With such speed and enjoyment.

I will always remember that day,
Until I die.
I always wanted a dog
And she was it.

All I could ever ask for,
Was her.
She's so perfect
And so intelligent.

Fits in to the family exceptionally well
And she's come so far since then.

You are amazing
The way you smile and laugh
I really like you.

I just don't understand you.
Your values are just so different.
I was brought up so unalike from you,
It's like you just don't care.

I had a good upbrining,
My parents taught me right from wrong.
They taught me to try my hardest at everything
And here you are not trying at all.

My parents brought me up,
The way all kids should.
The same way that they were,
With a caring personality and love.

Do your parents have values?
Is that why we are so different.
You don't show elders any respect,
That's just one other thing that divides us.

I guess people with values so extremely opposite
Will argue for all of time.

All alone.
In this stupid black dress
That mama made me wear.

Where are you now mama?
No where that matters.

Where is the exit in this place?
All I see is hedge after hedge
And a bright red tree.

It's kinda peaceful,
Maybe if I just...
Climb this and..
I hit the ground that's what happens.

The least they could do is make a seat in this place
The cracked concrete is way too cold to sit on.
What is with these shoes?
So fancy and painful.
I can blame mama for that too.

The waves are crashing around me.
So peaceful yet so strong.
I can see my whole life here,
Just floating by.

The water,my surfboard and me,
I don't want to surf
All I want is to sit here and think.

Think about 'what if?'
And 'maybe I should have done this'.
The horizon seems so far away,
The more you travel towards it
The further away it is.

I could say the same about life,
Sometimes the more you want something
The least likely you are to receive it.

There floats my past relationships
And the pain of loosing him.
The ocean is so calming and healing,
That I want to stay forever.