Nicole Fraser

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

There are scars on my skin,
My body is too thin,
And My hair isn't perfect,
I've already checked.

My eyebrows too bold
Personality too cold,
It's all in my head,
Because of the what she said.

The stories are one and the same,
Bullying to cause shame,
But they don't realise the pain,
As long as there's popularity to gain.

Words are vicious in more ways then one,
Imagine if this was your son,
Or your daughter,
Put up for slaughter.

Maybe your friend who hurts inside,
Each day she cried.
She chose to hide it,
Had a crushed spirit,
And she's not here any more.

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

Spirituality

Should I believe in you?
Maybe it would be good to,
Have someone controlling things,
Someone protecting my heart strings.

Dear god, if your listening,
The ocean is glistening,
As I sit and watch it,
Is this your spirit?

Do you even exist?
Or is it just a twist,
In the fairytale.

There is a heaven up there,
Or so they say, it could be bare,
But they don't care,
Because they have their spirituality.

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

Robert

I had to shut you out,
Or I would scream and shout,
I'm so sorry for that,
We could have had a chat.

It wasn't part of the plan,
Why do you do this man?
But you gave me no choice,
You should have heard my voice.

I had to do it to protect my heart,
When you didn't come home it all fell apart,
I would stay up crying,
And you are always lying.

You are my brother,
I wish you would rather,
Be here or not,
I shouldn't have to connect the dots.

I was just a kid,
I had to grow up fast ,yeah I did,
And be the responsible one,
That load was a ton.

I will always love you,
And that will always be true,
Even with the charges and the drugs,
And those friends who are thugs.

Please just be good for now,
And I will vow,
To be here for you.

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

All alone

I'm all alone now,
Sitting in the dark,
I lost the spark
In my eyes.

I can't see the other side,
Of the room in which I hide.
It's so quite and cold,
As I try to hold
The remainders of my heart.

A wave of sorrow hits me,
Now I can not see.
I can hear how his voice sounded,
The pain keeps me grounded.

Wishing he was here with me,
Back then how we use to be,
In love and happy,
And downright sappy.

It's all over now,
As I loudly vow,
To love him always,
Through these hallways.

But there is only me.

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

Insecurities

The tears stream down my face
And fall on my pillowcase.

The weight of the world is on my shoulders,
Like two massive boulders.

Why is it this hard,
Am I really this scarred?
On the inside only,
My quiet words are lonely.

Is it normal to feel this way?
And to keep my friends at bay,
From the truth in my heart,
No it's not very smart.
But it's what I do.

I feel ugly and weak,
I guess I am a major freak,
Someone so far from normal,
With no date to the formal.

A smile is put on my face,
To cover up every trace
Of insecurities.

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

Let Her Go

It's been a while now,maybe a year,
You need to move on my dear.
She is gone,
And she's not coming back,
I need to get you on track.

Don't you know it's not your fault,
Put your mind at halt,
What happened to her,
Doesn't define what you were.

At her funeral you tried,
To keep your spirits high,
You keep asking yourself why.

Something inside you died,
Along with your wife,
And the rest of your life,
Has changed forever.

Nicole Fraser Jun 2013

The Dancer

She was sixteen in this crazy world
She had big dreams and her hair was curled
Just a young daddy's girl,
Who loved to twirl.

Her dream was to be a dancer,
But she couldn't find the answer,
How to get to the top,
Without getting dropped.

Her spirit was strong,
As she would sing along,
To her favourite song.

Tragedy struck,
A case of bad luck,
She broke her back,
And her spirit began to lack.

Her sister helped her through,
And she knew,
She would reach it someday,
Maybe not today,
But in the future.