I miss when you cared
jealous of other girls
because that was proof that you loved me
proof that I was your world
I remember when those tears fell
cause I was being stupid before we dated
love is that emotion where you go from loved to hated
and you hated me in that moment
and I apologized but it felt real
and that love had me thinking one day I'd kneel
down
but now I'm down on my knees
and not in the way I thought
and not for the birds and the bees
for those sad, sad pleas
of me begging please
I just want to forget
I'm locked in sadness, just hand me the keys
and I tried hard
and I'm such a lazy boy
all I'd ******* do is sit in my LazyBoy
but you motivated me
you helped me start writing
and when I got depression
that happiness had me fighting
but now I'm fighting for the answer
as if I was looking for the cure, and this was cancer
but I can't decide
I just wish it was like it begun
when instead of your #2
I was your #1

I remember I wrote you cheesy poems
did everything to make you happy
I wanted to take you out and show em
how lucky I was
thinkin they sent something from above
I was stupid
stupid in love

I miss it

I miss the way we were

the way we were happy
those days with her
but now I'm
about the opposite

I feel like I want to drown
these ******* thoughts blasting in my head
like sadness surround sound
just let me flee out of this dumb town
and maybe things would be different if I was around

I am a bloodhound
searching for happiness instead of deer
but I wasn't prepared
for when that happiness would disappear

funny how when I need people the most, they aren't here
I'm a magician, make my loved ones disappear
just like my happiness

it is now non existent
trying to cut these sad corners
like it's a car that I'm drifting

I drive stick shift but when I make a mistake, I can't reverse
I hope it'll let me brake before I'm driving in a hearse
because even when I expect nothing, what's coming is worst

I'm sorry

but no one needs a selfish friend
so get rid of the first three letters
because this is the end

I am a ticking time bomb
and I am scared
that one day I will blow up

they say the truth hurts
they were right
I did **** up last night
I get stupid and mad and scared
and depressed and anxious and paranoid
I care
but I guess it doesn't show
because I'm left with nothing
I set the bar so low
that now I am nothing

sometimes I just don't want to wake up
reality is my cancer
and it's reality that is destroying me
my fantasy of being a better person
a person who people love
a person who people admire
but that's just a fantasy
and the reality is quite the opposite
I hate myself and I'm still cocky
I'm over dramatic
I am a **** up

I just want to be happy
but even when I am
I manage to ruin it

sorry

I am poison
destroy everything I love
everything I come in contact with
and no matter how much I hate myself
it won't stop
I just hope someone comes up with a cure
because I am poison
and I need to be destroyed