I guess I'm another broken teenager
says he have problems
hand me the acid
because I'd love to dissolve them
and I deal with them daily
but its been **** lately
and school just makes me hate me
because I can't stop thinking
my mind brings me to that deep hole
trying to find happiness like I'm finding nemo
just sick of all these people
that I can't talk to
they don't understand
so I say I don't want to
because I feel like I'm crazy
thinking my thoughts are all wrong
paranoia paranoia repeating like a song
and many more of course
just want to erase it
but it's written in pen
so it's the pencil I'm chasing
maybe I can go back
but life doesn't work like you want it
no refunds, you're sorry you bought it
regretting those actions
actions louder than words
one stone three birds
if only I could do that with disorders
maybe then I'd be fine
hand me a remote
I want to rewind

I feel useless
can't even support my own girl
make it about me when it should be about her
things happen
I try to change
but change is hard because we'll always be the same
I'm selfish, thinking about my self
I'm selfless
don't care about myself
now how does that make any sense
scared to turn 18 and start paying rent
don't know what to do anymore
how to be rich if I'm poor
don't know what to do anymore
it just feels like a chore
I want to make my parents happy
but they're overwhelmed with disappointment
want to be a kid again
want to be reappointed
but they're pointing at me
standing in the spot light
those open door chances
don't know what I've even done right
so I turn left
please show me the key
I'm locked with my mind
and it's ******* destroying me
I'm paranoid and desperate
selfish and annoying
they say be what you want
but it's like they flip a coin
I can't even help it
but help me see
they've been asking me since a kid
but I still don't know what I want to be
but I know what I don't
and the answer is me

life is just a maze
a puzzle like the living
we grow like trees
but are the trees giving

we grow tall
teeth like leaves fall
blood red like a meatball
just like the leaves off a tree in fall
some are straight up like skeeball
some are curved and different
we want to be above like a seagull
and yet we're so insistent
on bringing others down like "I'M SIGNIFICANT"
my mother told me I was gifted
and we're all hypocrites
but we can be forgiving
but we will never give up
this win is not for giving
so we lie awake
pondering "what are the chances?"
life is giving me these questions
but I don't know how to answer
so we look and it's another game of hide and seek
but answers hide like tongue in cheek
you'll find out if you just speak

up
they tell me
why are you so quiet?
long hair, you must be so defiant
and we hate those ******* judgments
but we make them too
most people are made of glass
you can see right through
but the answers are condensation
you cant see, can you?
we make assumptions
wanting them to be the truth

there'll always be a mystery
people ask "what's the point of living?"
wait and you'll see
answers aren't for giving

my mind bleeds
thoughts bleak
"what are you seeking?"
imperfect like old floor boards,
always creaking
sleeping to escape
only to wake up to myself
square like a crate
put my mind on the shelf
cause I don't wanna listen to my thoughts
they rip me up like paper
emotions running bold
layers deep like a wafer
I just want to run away
I think I'd feel safer

but I can't
because you can't run from yourself
stuck looking in the mirror
wishing you were somebody else
deal with how you cope
and deal how you wish you blended
let me be someone else
because I just wanna end this

I'm tireless, unmotivated, a failure
send me out to sea, send me off like a sailor
I can't breathe, pass me my inhaler
I don't want to breathe

see you later

I can't tell between ****** teenage angst
and my own emotion
but turn off my mind I'll show you happiness in motion
I'm abused by my thoughts
so now I need a counselor
looking for love and thinking that I found her
well it looks to be another loss
paint me out of your life like you're Bob Ross
always jumping out of the way like criss cross
but me, I'm stuck to my mind like tree moss

point me to surgery
remove my mind
I'll show you a sad burglary
internally, an emergency
faking happy like perjury

but I guess it's not always fake
but it's not consistent like waves in a lake

I just want some motivation
and satisfaction for achievement
but I can't think straight like bereavement
I just want some help, can't you see it?

I just want some help, I really need it

they say "you're better than this"
I laugh in reply
it's nice to try but I can see the sympathy in their eye
people live, people grow, people love and die
it's how life works
but it's worth a try
"you can be someone"
dream and you can achieve it
wheres my motivation?
I'm just sad like bereavement
is it worth it?
the feeling of achievement
the only way to find out is to try,
then you believe it
what's the point you ask
we're only human
we do the best we can
we're only human
but what if we fail?

we're only human

I say it's worth a try
you're born
born to die
but what to make of this life before the time comes
it's different
eye to eye
you are who you want to be
you are who you want to be
you are you

who do you want to be?