I wonder which is the fastest way to die?
A deep cut through my wrist?
A bullet in my head?
Or just to suffocate myself

Either way would end the pain.

I'm really tired.
I'm really exhausted.
I'm sick of getting hurt by you time by time.
I hate getting deserted by you
All those fake promises
All those false hope and encouragements don't mean anything to me anymore
All the attempts I tried to build back the friendship.
No just no.
I know you would never understand me maybe because you look down on me cuz I'm suicudal.
All I really need is someone to make me smile to understand me and not give up on me.
Just so you know,I'm fighting this battle alone with a broken sword and shield.

Why did you have to do this?
Why now?
Of all times.
Maybe I guess I shouldn't have poured my heart out towards you
I can't really blame you
You never experienced anything like this before
But all I want is to rebuild the trust I lost with you.
I want to tell you
But I just couldn't

Maybe you don't know how it feels to be depressed.

Where there's a will, there's a way, kinda beautiful
And every night has its day, so magical
And if there's love in this life, there's no obstacle
That can't be defeated

For every tyrant to tear upon the vulnerable
In every lost soul, the bones of the miracle
For every dreamer, a dream we're unstoppable
With something to believe in

Monday left me broken
Tuesday I was through with hoping
Wednesday my empty arms were open
Thursday waiting for love, waiting for love
Thank the stars it's Friday
I'm burning like a fire gone wild on Saturday
Guess I won't be coming to church on Sunday
I'll be waiting for love, waiting for love
To cover on

Where there's a will, there's a way, kinda beautiful
And every night has its day, so magical
And if there's love in this life, there's no obstacle
That can't be defeated

For every tyrant to tear upon the vulnerable
In every lost soul, the bones of the miracle
For every dreamer, a dream we're unstoppable
With something to believe in

Monday left me broken
Tuesday I was through with hoping
Wednesday my empty arms were open
Thursday waiting for love, waiting for love
Bang the stars it's Friday
I'm burning like a fire gone wild on Saturday
Guess I won't be coming to church on Sunday
I'll be waiting for love, waiting for love
To cover on

My blade next to me
My problems surround me
I took my arm up and all other I held my blade
My mind races
Do I do it?
I felt hopeless
I felt myself dead on the inside
I'm tripping over my own thoughts
Well,I said to myself.  
Here I go again.