The voices in my head control what i do
they used to  make me smile
or laugh
but now they make me
hurt
and cry
I used to feel pretty
but because of the voices in my head
I am now
ugly
fat
stupid
Was it always this way?
deep down I know that something isn't right
but I can't escape those **** voices in my head

Because of you I keep my secrets locked in a chest because I was afraid to take the attention off of you
My mind races, My paces
And its all because of you
Because of you I wasn't allowed to share my achievements because "you couldn't handle it"
I hate you sometimes
Because of you I feel like I'm being a bad person because I don't want to hear about your problems anymore
I have enough of my own now
I can't express my feelings because of you
And sometimes I wish for you to stop and think about how you're affecting me
Because of you I am alone

Disgusting.
Is the way that I feel when I woke up to a text saying “make me ***”
Am I only here for ***?
Horrible.
Is how I thought of myself after saying no and you never talked to me again
I guess that’s all I’ll ever be to you
Cry.
Is what I want to do because your insensitivity shot down all my confidence
Angry.
Is how I felt when I figured out that all that time you had been using me
But then I realized that I don’t need you
and now
Beautiful.
Is the way I feel when I wake up and look at myself because I know only what I think matters
Proud.
What I think of myself now that I figured out that I don’t need you to be confident with myself
Laugh.
Is what I do when I look back and realize what a tool you were
Happy.
Is how I feel now knowing that because of you I discovered that i don't need anyone to make me feel wanted
Because now I know what I want
And being your "side chick" is definitely not it