i took a walk
across the plains
that scattered thoughts from branch to branch
all across the sky
i let them float around my head
outside my body
outside my control
the breeze picked them up
sent them dancing away
like clouds gently pushed
gently encouraged
gently
happily
away
i closed my eyes
leaned against the bark of a monstrous being
that carried my thoughts away in the wind
away into nothing
away into everything
away from me

i saw a flicker of light in the corner of my left eye
and i thought i was losing my mind
the window had been closed for quite some time
and yet the inkling of a sparkle tricked my vision
had an angel kissed my eyelid
and then fluttered away
realizing i was not who she had searched for?
i would never know
because that glimmer in the corner
could only be the headlights
of a car
turning the corner
onto my quiet neighborhood street
while i sit in the comfort
of my dark room
alone

Violent pangs
Reflective of the depth
And meaning of this living
It's not that I can control
It's that I can't
And here, I won't ever
It's a place where anything goes
But anything is judged before it goes
And then it never goes
Just rests in a grave with the rest of anything
A place where high spirits lay sordid
And broken
Pieces
Scattered
Amongst
Other
Brok-
En
Souls
I never was meant for this life
This obedience to the physical
Faith and captivity
Love and let go
You don't know me
The stories I've told
The stories I've been in
Look through these wide eyes
Break
The
Mold
And wonder
And wonder
And become
Anew

How strange are we? To think this feeling won't last for longer than the night. My hands are in yours, and yet I ponder. This can't possibly last forever. I need you more now than I should, more than any foolish girl should, more than any other petty desire, because at this point, all else seems terribly petty. Time is cruel and as our lives are set in motion, it creeps upon us without warning. I can make you see... This life of mine isn't perfect nor anywhere near, but I'm laying it out in the open, because I need for you to see me. I need you more now than I should, and I want to show you. I can show you that I won't leave, I'll never leave you. I'm all alone, spilling my burning heart out to you. I've fallen down, picked up the pieces and walked away unashamed, but for you, I'll stick around, stand idly for you to sputter the words I so desperately long for. I've bottled this fury and passion within me and I'm handing it over. Open your palms, take my hands, and we can flee this lonely town for good. Together we'll stop time. Together, we're immortal.

shady creature, you steal my soul
bottle the light and seal the hole
cloud my motive
blur my voice
static in a rush of noise
laying in the dark
shallow breath, my chest sinks through
my love is grey, yours so brand new

anticipating
no, i’m simply waiting
for a moment
steadfast
this moment just won’t last
grip it, grasp and don’t let go
a memory is all i’ve ever known

i'm holding my breath
waiting for your next move
i'm patiently waiting
just dying for the thrill
you're taking your time
i'm wasting all mine
on fixed empty words
another day
in a shifting life