i've lived enough
enough to know
that what you feel that's stored below
within your heart and mind and soul
the hatred that you must console
a warmth that lingers in your bones
a warmth taken up by cold
it's selfish to say
because it's no fault but my own
we wander paths of vivid difference
merging and colliding and falling away
i am no monster
no heart of stone
just lost and wandering
no place to go

crawling in my skin
my bones tremble, they shake
this medication isn’t enough
to wipe you from this slate
i found a new muse
a hole, i crawled into on my own
i sought solace in this place
but the wall’s are caving in
the rain pours now
i’ll drown or suffocate
but you’ll have no say
no, you won’t have your way
not today, no, rest your bones
i’ll find my own way

it's crazy how a single thing can flip you upside down
how a single thing can shake you sensless
turn the tables right around
i never meant to try to be a part of something else
i was confused when it was quiet
you were the only thing that sounded loud
everything once said to me that was tucked up in a sleeve
was all but broken and a memory
and that's all it's ever going to be
i was held up in a chokehold
a phantom pressed it's lips to mine
poison rushing on my skin
emotions running out of time
shadows lingered where i stood
fog never seemed to clear
and then one day, when least expected
a shadow disappeared
a few days have passed since that shadow left me
still my mind has turned to fear
but i can sense another presence
a radiance stays here
now the shadows no longer linger
quite as close as they had before
they still haunt me in the dead of night
but i'm no longer frightened to my core

if ever you wonder
if ever your heart should grow curious
for lust and love and spirit
electricity that splits the spine
a jolt of lightening
rushing through wide open veins
baby hairs standing on end
on the nape of your neck
a wave of cold sweat
dripping through your hair
moistens your back
if ever a moment passes
if ever you refrain from yelling loud
sing a melody
scream “i love you”
skip through a crowd of people
and smile
laugh
dance
and forget your worry
the temporary madness of yesterday
because you are static, ecstatic
you are wonderful

bury your burdens deep within
tucked down within your soul
"hell hath no mercy," they say to me
to me hell hath no toll
you're kicking stones and wasting time
a troubled kid, a troubled mind
lay down your weapons, come to me
your sins, i'll make them mine
give and take, then take some more
lessons never learned
i've fallen once, i'll fall again
this grave, there's no return

Our love
We let it grow and bloom
And wildly it did too
And smothered the earth with beauty
Joy
Laughter
Happiness
We let it grow beyond the garden we had set aside for it
The small picket fence was too weak to hold it inside
It grew so large I couldn't walk away from it without walking over it
Stepping on its leaves and branches
Breaking vines and twisting them around my ankles like chains
It grew so large I couldn't see past the hills anymore
Just garden
And vines
A mangled fence
I couldn't escape the love we let bloom and fester and **** around this lot
I thought it could never end
The thorns pricked my skin
A drop of blood rushed from my flesh
And I could never leave this garden
This parasite that never died
Simply grew old and burst from the soil again and again and again...
Love is everlasting
And love is forever
Love is all you'll ever know
And sometimes love is the only thing keeping you in the garden
Coming back to tend to those few blossoms that peek through the jagged-edged grass