I still do
Find a smile
When you come around,
Not real like physically
Being there next to me,
But the kind of
Coming around
In my head,
Like there's a carousel
In my skull
And somehow
I'm standing
There
In one of my eye sockets
Watching it turn
Sometimes so fast
It's all blurry
But the colors
And the lights
Amuse me to no end,
But I'm just serious
Observing
And then it slows
Just enough
That I can see you
A different outfit
A different thought
And I laugh...
APAD13 - 056 © okpoet

I will never replace him
But I can eclipse his memories,
He like the moon
Still casting shadows
From the past,
And I the glowing orb
In the sky shining fierce
And bright
Trying to blind you
To all that he was,
But you wear your shades
And I can't pierce through,
Still reminiscing
Thinking there was
Maybe something
You didn't do
Didn't try,
And so if
The light fails,
Then I will try
And warm your world
Until you peel off
The heavy coat
And layers of regrets
Weighing you down;
Letting you welcome
The sunrise of our future
And watch the sunset
Close on the past
You're moving on from
As I'm here to be
Your steadfast friend under the sun...
APAD13 - 055 © okpoet

When I was at my worst
When I was just about to jump,
I got a prescription
From life
Two doses of her
One to three times
A day,
To ease my soul
To bring sleep
To feel again
To make me
Sure footed,
But the side effects
Were worse than
My initial sickness
Heartbreak and doubt
Or so I thought,
In recovery
I look back
And realize
At least
I'm still alive
And I no longer
Want to let go;
Thanks to her,
My placebo...
APAD13 - 054 © okpoet

I want to hold you close
Feel the beating of your heart against mine,
I need the warmth of your soul
To fill the void in mine,
Without you; the skies are gray
The earth around me is dead,
Without you I'm not alive
My blood ceases to flow,
Without you I don't exist
My being is without a spirit,
Without you; I cant live
I want to hold your hands in mine;
And tell you how much I love you,
I want to embrace you
And tell you how much I care,
I want to love you
Show you forever what you mean to me,
Hold me; love me,
I want to know you feel me too
These are the moments I seek,
The instants that give me life
Know who I am; know what I am,
I am the love you search for
Embrace me; accept me...
© okpoet

I see you from afar
Twinkling brightly like a star,
As your face lights up
Not from the coffee in your cup,
I can hear the pitter patter of your heart
Faster and faster from the start,
As your eyes lock
Tick tock,
Time stands still
Wonder how long till,
You're both in each other's arms
Exchanging kisses like collector's charms,
This sweet embrace
Who would have suspected this the case?
Two lover's hearts entwined
Love's response in kind,
No one the wiser to your wit
Practiced getaways like the perfect skit,
Each day the feeling growing strong
Learning each other like the words to your favorite song,
And soon I hope the perfect culmination
Will arrive to this incantation,
Live for each moment in this dreamy existence
As you live for each other without pretense...
© okpoet

My heart jumps
When you call,
All my worries
& cares seem to fall,
Just one minute
With you seems an eternity,
Just one word
From you an entire symphony,
Sometimes dreadful I fear,
The angst in my voice you could hear,
The lust, the want, the need,
These feelings held back
That wish to be freed,
To call you names;
Pretty ones I mean,
Like baby, sweetie,
****, my queen,
Your voice flows audible
Toxic to my ears,
A vision of you
Clouds my eyes with tears,
How I yearn to have you before me,
With that pretty smile that fills me with glee,
To see you, hear you,
Feel you, smell you,
I want nothing more
Than to be with you; boo,
To cradle you my love;
In my arms, I wish to give in
To your seductive charms,
I want you once forever;
Just you & I as one together...
© okpoet

I still think of you,
Pretty eyes beautiful hue,
I shed a tear,
Whenever your voice I hear,
Think of those times,
Riding between the lines,
Racing fast;
Running away at last;
Our dreams we had to fulfill,
That was such a thrill,
But our time faded,
We strayed from our course jaded,
And so; far and close,
The paths we chose,
Separated our lives,
But sharp they were not knives,
For you still are in my mind,
Your essence you left behind,
For me to cherish, never forget,
Unsettling in my days; you beget...
© okpoet