Tired of feeling empty, but when I drink so heavy, all my problems spill out this bottle til everyone is sick of me. I'm drinking Jagermeister ice cold. My Problems on the rocks, these insecurities don't stop. Fell down before I saw the world crumble from the top. When did the lies begin to burn? I've learned the truths that hurt. Been fighting since birth. Letting go by the next toughest lessons that brought pain to my chest. One day I'll be able to be at peace but my burdens continues to rest. I only know me at best. Counted my personal wins that kept me at success. Cheers to the ones that knows a little toooo well, what's its like to drink yourself to hell. It's like spoken slurred words ranting some spells, a suffocation on the liver ringing painful bells. My drinks empty, my decisions filthy. Words I've never said, actions I'll forever regret. Began a journey I shouldn't have left. But as long as I stick to the right maybe I'll find my way back around, a moment of safety or a moment of weakness either way there is a way to hit the ground. Eyes blood shot, stomachs a angry growl. I'd change the minute I know how.

We're together now, I wonder how it'd be like when  we were kids. Riding bikes, meeting at the park, running blocks to each other's homes, and talking about chasing dreams in our tree house. Pillow forts to keep the us safer from scars that are now covered by our tattoos. I wish I could have been there for you when life hurt you. I wished I could have given you my night light to use on your darkest days. I wished we all would have grown up together. But now we're Adulting together. I can dream of a chapter from my younger adventures. I can talk about pay phones and cigarettes. But now I'm here with you now. We're getting older together now. I'll give you my night light, I'll read you a story on how I got by and show you the scars on my skin. Let you know that you're never alone with me by your side. Meet up with me under swings and walk with me to the slide. This is our park now. We'll continue to grow and dream still

Hand me that pill, these emotions about to ****, swallow that feeling down I will, I got my drink not trying to spill.
A message to my stepmother father you understood in certain circumstances, I used to drown my life then take chances. I spent so long sipping and slamming bottles. It's ironic because that **** used to help, when I said I'd never drink it bad for my health.
Little brother I need you, youngest sis we talk more and see **** through. Then my second in command, we use to take a hand. You told me you understand, when I couldn't stand. **** some days I feel so defeated and I can't see it through. Mama the ******* need me to do.

Paralyzed on the floor
Gripping on the pink pillow
I'm shaking back and forth in this dark room
Tv lit and I'm distracted from remembering the scent of her perfume.
Narrow road
If it wasn't for a smile I'd a never spoke
Burry me with whiskey and cigarettes
Put on my songs that'd I'd never forget
Excuse my manners they haven't left
This is where you count me as another guilty regret
But at least we're ****** together