Which of the fence do I land on?
I've been broken apart and some how carried on.
I feel wrong, I feel gone, I'm feeling aches.
All I've I ever heard was what I'm too do or should do.
I'm anxious to even move.
Chest pumping leg shaking.
Staring off into space with a loud silence.
I've been here before but with a higher price. The cost of friendships and the cost of mental health out weighing one and  another.
Tears form but my sweat to thick.
Hands getting heavier, legs barely moving. I'm stuck and paralyzed with these dark thoughts. A cloud forming and voices calling.
(You okay?)
Me: yeah man, I'm fine just tired

So sweet, so kind, and so demanding.
Cute, adorable, and frightening.
A snap to relight that spark.
It's your birthday, make a wish upon the candles, then let's go take a drive in your car. Perhaps talk or sit in silence.
Cheap *****
Expensive future
Priceless feelings
Gestures so sweet with the treat of a snickerdoodle
How my weakness fell under my desired sweets along with your desirable smile
Both must be delicious coming from you
I best reach out for the doc to avoid this cavity

As if enough, we've talked with exuberance that made my feelings so tough. A love at first glance but a heart shattering after falling for her for just a few hours. Funny how I pleaded to be enough. But she'd bounce between broke boys as if enough for her world to spin. I've rotated mine and have made it go up, down, and back around to catch a smile. As if enough I'm the one that wasn't even enough. She'll never reach high enough to get back to my level.

First off I'm a start with the insecurities.
I'm not afraid of the pain I'm more afraid of you betraying my trust.
Bourbon, whiskey, toilet tissue, and tape to fix me.
I've always been everyone's rock, been know to be kicked and forgot. But most would of flown off like paper so I'd a stayed on top. Waited for their gain so they found the strength in flying across the world as I'm skipping a cross the shores, go keep up with your success as I'm supporting mine with yours. I've been know to unlock doors. But my love would always be yours. Secondly with my my sincerest grip with a gentle firm hug, wanted to let you know that you're all more than enough.

Locked in a room drowning in alcohol, but still feeling nothing at all.
Numb with emotion as tears storm my face, I wished I felt a feeling especially for a happier place.
I'll remember the smiles on their face.
Addicted to numb, wake up still feeling no pain.
Just cheeks experiencing the rain.
Tears fell, my heart aches for attention.
I don't say anything.
Everyone's breaking, my hands are shaking
I'm drinking to remember, waking up to forget.
I'm so sorry it was you who had left.
So young with a beautiful baby girl
I held her for the first time today and I felt the slow motion in my world
I went from numb to a heart break.
Love you man hope you rest well and mosh for me

Never mind after all it was just a kiss.
Let's just pretend my presence wasn't a gift. I'll just pretend I've also got a replacement & some one to chill with.
With my sweet words giving you a laugh, my sweets just now got bitter & I'm a turn my back. Every night I've learned to never wish, it's pretty simple to find a good night kiss. It was love on top of my wish list. But you're all playing with me so it's hard to find comfort with words you've never meant. I should of act out the words I never said. I refuse to beg, signs told me I should of been the one leaving y'all on read. Never mind the feels I've ever gave. But your betrayal would never put me into a grave. Never mind a fake promise I'm a adventure out for someone great.