Nellie 55

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

If love was easy to fall for the world would be broken. It takes true strength to love, to repair, both souls and hearts. I'm always going to love everything about you, every inch of you, even every opinion you've got. Through the best and worse of times you and I face....... you'll always have a safer place in my open arms.

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

One shot of inspiration

Trying to out run the clock but all I'm catching is time. A reach for a moment just to hold it. But I forget how to take a second to breathe. I need a break from me. For the sake of my family, I just need to figure it out. A shot of inspiration is all I need. Minus the liquor, my mental just got sicker. I best learn how to swim before I drown.

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

His sobriety

He seeks a vibe, but after a bottle he kills the night. Loses respect, but more of a loss on his soul. He'll fight his flaws after he sobers up. He's destroying boundaries and he's ready to clean up. Drinking too much, a overflowing cup. Grandma I'm sorry I turned out this way. I'm do better, I'm lay low for a while. I'm a fight my drink, I don't need a glass to ponder or over think. Things will be okay. But how do I live? How do I cope? Most importantly how do I stop? I'm scared, but this needs to be done. His sobriety needs to happen. His mental health needs to let him free. Sorry for the ones I hurt, I need to fight my own battle before this bottle tosses me in dirt. Time for me to go to work. Grandma I'm sorry, I'm just lonely.

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

Forgiven (not)

His family got the end of his night terrors, and he's battling a nightmare. He didn't know, no amout pleads for forgiveness because that had been buried a long time ago. Then broken promises took control. Off with his respect. He needs to stop it and let go. Here's my true sincere opinion. I'm a mess and I shouldn't be chillin. I should roll up my sleeves, plant something healthy. Water my world, grow mental stability. Honestly I'd be happy for myself to change. Even if I lost the people in my world. I'm a be successful eventually. Once upon a broken heart, plot twist I broke it myself. I'll seek help. I'll give the world some space. Shooting for the stars at my own pace. It's never easy but it'll be honest work. Off with my disrespect here's my mistakes. Let's recycle to reduce bad habits. Sobriety I'm reaching up for you and here's my time you can have it.

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

Name this for me.

My thoughts woke me up, insecured thoughts began to knocking and my heart screamed oh ****. I'm just trying to put it all past me. I'm beginning to lose sleep. Cups of liquor to numb me. Now I'm feeding my flames with gasoline. Gaurds scraping my words and security running thin. Word of a wise, but I forgot how to live my life. **** I'm sorry, but I'm my own individual to fix up. Atleast I've got family to love.
Reality was smooth to swallow, but ****** me up. A prescription to make it hallow, but still to society it's not enough.
One step forward two steps back. Hmmm now I know how it feels when I'm filled with false and hopeless criticism. I'm walking here, just at my pace.

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

Drunk poetry

I've got a grip on commitment. But no girls committed. I've got my own achievements. But ***** her agreements. I'm doing me, me myself and I only. A good man! A great hand! But you're seeking something different. I'm real and you're fake! Im genuine and I'm great. But you're not to make my soul ache!

Nellie 55 Jul 2023

Drunk conflict

Darling if you were around I'd spam call.
Sorry for my whiskey breath I'm just truly trying to get home safe'N'all. A homie blacked out and tried calling. Honey I wasn't following. I was vibing and keeping track of the songs you'd love. But night like this makes it hurt knowing your lifeless and above. Got no porch light but I'm home. Wish I was able to call your phone. Cupcake where do I go from here? A officer called my cell and I'm just trying to drink a beer. Watch the sun rise, forever for you I'll try to fly. But unfortunately that ***** made you say goodbye. Now I'm drunk on a porch trying to wonder why. Darling I'm clingy and have your love. It's something I can't fall out of.