I can't find anyone or anything so close to me. As cliche as it sounds I still find love for the weirdest things, you don't need perfection to feel at home. A blanket, I sound, motivation to seek change, and even a adventure. People will come in and out of your life and that's okay. The must go on. No reruns, no returns, no going in circles. But I've learned that love has a life lesson. Love can be everywhere and you find yourself falling all the time. Maybe that's why I love Autumn so much. It's the beautiful colors to remind myself that I'm a colorful person like the rest of the fewer ones that are just as colorful as me. Until then I will always leave a porch light in my heart for the ones that are homesick because you have to have a little home in your back pocket.

They tell me they care. They have the time, love, and a emotional support for them to be there. I'm not prepared. I'm numb and I don't belong anywhere. Her love haunts me, I wish I can talk to her even in her after life. But she's supposed to be at peace. I wish I can join her but suicide is just not me. I cry, I hurt, and I'm ******* lonely. I wish she can hold me. The amount of time we spent on the phone. Hand written letters from home. Now I can't cope with out feeling alone. Darling will you give me a sign? Or some sort of message? I told you I was home safe, but I didn't know my home was broken into. Hard to believe I lost all of you. Hey sweetheart, just remember in my heart, our home..... my porch light will always be on for you. Come home safe I love you

Hard to believe you're gone. There was so many plans we had together! You're always going to be my baby girl. ALWAYS!
TOO THE MOON AND BACK BABY!  I'll always be yours. Remember when you said you wish I was there to save you? I definitely do. Kills me to know there was not a chance given to me to talk to you again. Now I'll lay in bed hoping I can hear our song and hear your voice. We'd talk for hours. Our weekends was the best weekends ever. With each second I've spent, I wish there was a refund to re-live those seconds again. You had the smile to cure my tears, and now it hurts so much I can't help to cry. I love you sweetheart.
Yours always,
Bel

She struggles with her thoughts. She holds every word he's said. Been struggling with the thoughts in her head. He's a liar, a cheater, and a beater. She loves the idea of the love she thought she deserved. But she's the one really hurt. They can never work. How do you tell her to let go when she regains the strength to keep a grip. But she shuts down in agony with his *******. He doesn't deserve your tears nor will he ever re-earn your trust. There is no love because it's a bust.  You can't stay under his spell forever. You deserve better. The worse part of all of this..... you still claim there was no other love like this! **** his loyalty because it was fake just like his ***** boy personality. With all the words you promised yourself. you're catching yourself into the bad habits. You lied awake, you're suffering from a heart break.

I never understood it when people liked me or wanted me to hang out. I've always been the social one but I'm low key not as social as you think. I still am more than happy to have the ones who make me tag along because I can't picture myself anywhere else. I found the good in every person I met. They're a few I found love for. Especially the ones I snap, text, call, or even have a drink with. My insecurities got weaker & my confidence grew stronger because you helped me through a few things. That is more than I can ever ask for ^_^ love you guys for that, Especially for the support when I do drunk poetry 🤣