He sips from a bottle
Drinks his emotions that he bottles
He struggles with his looks
Judges his self to feel better
He even wrote a pros and cons letter
He's drinking too much
With his family and friends he's no longer keep in touch
Drank them by a dozen
Drunk calling a cousin
Trying to find comfort but found nothing
He lost everyone's trust
By drunk dialing too much
I don't think he gave a **** any more
He's lost and don't want to be found with the heart he tore
Hes silently sobbing while he struggles to stay sober
Pillahots round after round till there isn't any more
**** the world tell him something that's a new flaw that he already doesn't know
Put his *** back on that ghost mode

I stay close to my daddy
He knew how to fix happy
The struggle I see in his eyes though
Makes me want to search for his hope
He's a single father
Watching for the youngest but it's no bother
That's his daughter
The **** I'd do
The things I've gone through
Daddy I'm sorry for being a ***
But I'll always have your back
You've fixed me, now I gotta help you
Wish I could run your world to pay it back
Hell I'll start so set me up I'm a run this track
Sprint to your heart
Pray and hope you won't fall apart
I remember watching tears form but they didn't pour
That type of a struggle is something I wouldn't want to see anymore
Mama walked out on me too
I know what's it like to lose
But God forbid I let any ****** hurt you again
Ask that ******* that tried to say your name In vain, but was supposed a joke?
I'd a smashed his brain
Call me insane but it's the wealth that's broke
Daddy taught me about being rich by personality
I just pray that one day I'll be able to see you happy

Chain smoking
Laughs because we're joking
Cans and bottles on that tailgate
Singing songs we know to keep the night awake
Blowing smoke
Making a joke
But deep down we're avoiding reality
Moments like these make me happy
I've got marb reds
Avoiding the thoughts that run through my head
Leaving others on read
Time for a great memory
Blowing smoke with a drink to keep me happy
Not a alcoholic
Just trying to avoid the toxic
Blowing smoke about to walk by the fire
Just wanted to sing s'more

Someone grab me a hero I can't speak
I'm isolating under my sheet
Bug bad wolf is after a sheep
Illuminate the Darkside so they can't creep
Screaming but can't be heard
Thought I hear mocking but it's just a bird
Paranoia hits to close to home
But panic is my comfort zone
Who has lived a peaceful life without overthinking?

My heart was sitting on a fence
Couldn't pick a side so I had to learn self defense
Like trouble I'd like a time out
Trying to improve anyone ready to take me out
Here's a chance, but I'm for once generally happy
Aside from daydreaming of a settle
Hopefully one day I'll have my own cute family, but until then I'm okay with where I'm at
Not to skinny, not too fat
Just a decent man waiting for someone to see that
Loyalty is my specialty
The past is the past and I'm on a new journey

Posting things for a future wanted dream
But can't even take a second to appreciate it all because of a screen
Selfies with everything thing
I've notice a nice ceiling out of it
Screen ready to go in the back of the pocket
What's a vacation?
I think I'll ask unemployment
Globally falling apart
Oh wait that's my world
Sorry about that, I write to avoid a anxiety attack
I hear everyone's struggle, but it's a double faced trouble
Ghostface, a struggle wave
But I'm not about to surf unnecessary drama
Just trying to keep a mental picture in a safer frame

One minute they're there to converse
Didn't matter if things got worse
Conversations with me got shorter,
They've got attention with someone else
That's because I wasn't close any longer
But I've got to start using my armor
But my feelings aren't bullet proof
So I began taking shots like I'll run out of stock
Back to the bottom because I was never on someone's priority spot
I could keep filling my glass with doubt
Drink it till happiness blacks out
But what's the point, I'd rather feel numb
People have lives I get that but their subliminal post feel as if it's directed to me and I feel so dumb
What have I done?
Just fuckimg lonely but I'm not alone!
How is that any comfort to anyone? Especially when it feels like betrayel is something they own!
Converse with me is like a question game because I've wondered what intrigued them
No one knew me, just know of what I've done, or who I chill with
I've surfed couches but delt with a harsh wave
Slept in my vehicle not a ******* soul gave a ****
I never knew how to converse because this short story always had to come up
That was me trusting you and showing you some love
But since I'm crazy might as well act like you don't know me
Well that's not all wrong who the **** had to patience to get to know me