I've been calling, falling, bawling, crawling, honestly any dramatic way to reach a reassurance from you. Tell me a story how you lost interest in me. Bitter sweet me up with a tough check. Either way I'm paying closer attention for me. I've received strength from lack of help. Fought my way out of hell. Tested the bridges I've built with people I genuinely love. Am I to fall again to drown in these eyes? I hear the same excuses.
"You're not like the other guys"
"I need a best friend right now"
"You're too far, wouldn't work"
I can go on all day but here's what usually hurts the most.
I'm chasing a ghost.
You've successfully raised my spirits to drown them with strung along finger I've been wrapped around.

My face drowned under fire.
That liquid burns faster and smoother with ice. I began kicking rocks, down after a shot. Why was i here? Had plenty of other waves. Lost some friends without the chance of saying goodbye. Happens usually overnight. I've turned off my phone, just to feel away from home. I've gotten greedy, so needy. Always guilty of being selfish. When did selfishness become normal again? Evrytime things got so hopeless, I've raged myself out of control. All I wanted was a place I can call home. I've met some decent **** in the dark. Not all the world is so bad when most around you knows what it's like to fall apart. If any of them needed me, I've always shown. Through thick and thin..... I believe i understood that the most. I've became what hurt the most. I've gone down that dark road. No music to guide me home. No lights to keep me open for a ghost. I've haunted myself yet again. Away from a home, not knowing where to go. No love in sight, no lips of delight. Not a hug or a goodnight. A empty cold hand, not even a blanket.
I've doubted I'd make it. Always sparkling nights, my confidence crumbles and falls. Running away towards fire, dizzy, struggling to speak, I wanna eat, about to sleep, but surounded by company. I don't want another drink.

You've got me calm and crazy, just wanting to know you. You've got a hold of my attention, honey what are your intentions? I'm at awwe missing a girl i don't know. She's something amazing and beautiful. I'm drifting closer, but further. I'm afraid of drowning. Please rescue me, if I've gone that far. I'd for sure swim my best towards your arms.  I would always come from a far. I wanna know who you are? Have you always been this close but yet this far. Would you like to catch a movie or grab a bite from a bar?

I want to know you.
I've got great experiences to show you.
I want to miss you, A reason to text you.
To hear about your day, how you felt.
Darling im dying to know you.
Hold you with your fingers wrapped around mine. A treat but please on repeat but forever. If that makes sense. I'm talking crazy baby, im running laps around your smile lately. Darling get to know me, let's grab a cup of coffee. Smoke on a chill night, talking about our lives. I'll hold you tight!