My face drowned under fire.
That liquid burns faster and smoother with ice. I began kicking rocks, down after a shot. Why was i here? Had plenty of other waves. Lost some friends without the chance of saying goodbye. Happens usually overnight. I've turned off my phone, just to feel away from home. I've gotten greedy, so needy. Always guilty of being selfish. When did selfishness become normal again? Evrytime things got so hopeless, I've raged myself out of control. All I wanted was a place I can call home. I've met some decent **** in the dark. Not all the world is so bad when most around you knows what it's like to fall apart. If any of them needed me, I've always shown. Through thick and thin..... I believe i understood that the most. I've became what hurt the most. I've gone down that dark road. No music to guide me home. No lights to keep me open for a ghost. I've haunted myself yet again. Away from a home, not knowing where to go. No love in sight, no lips of delight. Not a hug or a goodnight. A empty cold hand, not even a blanket.
I've doubted I'd make it. Always sparkling nights, my confidence crumbles and falls. Running away towards fire, dizzy, struggling to speak, I wanna eat, about to sleep, but surounded by company. I don't want another drink.