She said life is difficult for the blind. Darling hold my hand I'll be your guide.
Difficulty or not I'll be that guy. Make sure you stay by my side. Reinsurance along the way, I promise you're doing good babe.

Ashley, oh my dear sweet Ashley.
How I miss you ever so much my dear.
The snaps, text, and even calls that use to save me and you knew well and clear
Do I ever miss your compliments and your son sending me love
I miss you baby
I still love you my honey

My sweet Cupcake,
How's it going sweets? You see my old man yet? How about Broccoli? I ******* can't without you ***, your "Bell" Has been through Hell lately. I never thought I'd miss your pet names so ******* much. Sometimes when I'm alone I always say those names in my head to stay focused. I used to be so ******* excites to travel the distance to see you let alone spend hours socializing on the phone or even sitting online with each other's company. Dear Lord I ******* miss that to the ******* moon and back baby. I wish to even smoke a bowl with you or even just have your favorite snacks with you.
(Strawberry cheesecake Danish)
(Cheez-It DUOZ Sharp Cheddar and Parmesan Cheese)
I have so much to say but can't even type them or write them or even let alone say them. But I will say this, I love and Miss and Need you Nicole Michelle Hammond.
Love always your
Bellion
P. S.
Sorry if I spelt the nickname wrong, you never taught me how to spell it xoxo love you cupcake.

My eyes don't see past this tunnel of silence, but the tears silenced through this tunnel. It's peaceful and I'm still pretty anxious. Can't tell if this is a sign or a blessing. I'm pretty cautious but I'm also good at forgetting. If I had my way, I'd not change a direction on my map, there is now way of bringing or changing the past behind my back. **** a episode I do this feel like binging these manic moments. I'd rather be somewhere happier for me to forever enjoy it. The past gave me the power of strength and weakness. It's up to me to find self forgiveness. I'm trying to find a new direction and I'm running low on cigarettes. As long as I keep busy I guess I can be careless.