Behind closed doors
Texting for a while
Staring at the floor
Trying to hide your smile

Inhaling to hold your tears
Expressing you’re tired
When you’re in your feels
Her company is desired

Short hugs
Don’t say “babe”
Pull drugs
Stay contained

We live in shadows
And stay positive
Hoping it won’t show
Our love so secretive

Where does your heart lie? Does it hide behind the lies and the smiles you portray love to be? To be fake in the face of your children to see? Does it hide in the truth the  “you” came out to believe? Is it that hard to accept the color of the blood that runs through the leaves that grow on your branches and miss the chances of living a life so free? These are the questions that posses the expressions of answers that are “Yes.”

You rest your face on my left shoulder
I pull you towards me to be closer
Our eyes lock and never blink
Everything stops as we stare and think
"I'm in love with you. This feels so right."
And now my heart is soaring like a kite
I lean over and kiss you gently
Sparks fly as our lips touch slowly
Eyelids shut to feel a deeper affection
While your body turns to my direction
I caress your back under your shirt in black
To unhook your bra and take them off
You brush your fingers through my hair
Then I kiss your neck as you gasp for air
My hands then shift beneath your red lace
I go in slowly as your heart begins to race
My fingers curl as I go deeper
You then glare at me and scream "harder"
I look back at you and say "I want you"
I hold you tighter with your face askew
While you're moaning towards your ******
Satisfaction is what I feel and that's a fact
So we end this kissing passionately
This intimacy is what I want with you endlessly

It always feels like a dream
Being with you feels so right
So I will choose to stay asleep
Just to hold you one more time

To fly freely into this world
Is what your soul deserves
Your spirits so high
It magnifies comfort and joy
Like a bird, you spread your wings
To express love and happiness
Soar free like the wind my love
And I will feel you in the air
As I fall deeper in love with you

I simmer in the sorrow I put myself through
As I take this extended release tablet I call pain
I swallow it willingly due to the love that I have for you
Because loving you is all my heart can contain

Day to day, I am constantly reminded of fear
Fear of the day you go back to him
Fear of the moment you disappear
Fear that our hopes and dreams are dimmed

But I continue to fight in this war
Because when I say "I love you more"
I don't mean more than you do
I love you more than the troubles we go through