The power of love
Is a burning crusade
Started in a heart
That is ablaze
Burning with passion
For the sharing of lovers' days
The roads are tough
But together they move on
The mountains are high
But their arms are strong
Life's never easy
But together they know
That they'll find paradise

A poem a day
Keeps the pain away
The heart-ache at bay
Lights the way

A poem a day
To keep the head on straight
To help the mind concentrate
To keep love great

Oh awake ye child with starry-teared eyes
Awake to find ye’s torment is over
Thy oppression is over
Thee is set free

Free to frolick
Free to play
Free to wipe
Thine tears away

Don’t entertain memories
Of thy betraying parents
For their place has been saved
In not this bliss
But they shall pay
Tenfolds the pain

Hark! Look ahead
Ye clean, smiling babe
For in the light there be
A new set of parents
Come to smother with love
And mend the tears
Of the scarred up heart
And the crying babe

What does it take
To be your man
Six packs abs
And dark gold skin?

What if all I have
Is taped up glasses
And a face full of zits?

Do you prefer
The dark and danger
Or sensitive and pure?

What about
Nerdy and weird
Or awkward with a side of fear

What’s it take
To be your man
My arms are stretched
Will you take my hand?

The way is blocked
Hurting only you
You can still help others
But your creativity stopped
You have Creative Constipation
And there is one way to make it stop

Face your fears
Try something new
Make a memory
Get scraped a few
Take a Creative Laxative
Get those juices flowing again

Then you’ll have
Creative Diarrhea
Ideas flowing forth
In the forms
Of line or verse
Movie or paint
Everything you see
Will be touched
By your creative spree

Criss, cross,
Applesauce
The class sat
Watching me run
Watching me play
Not advising me to sit down
Just waiting for the teacher
Because they aren't worried
about my hide
They want a free show
As the teachers hands let go
For they were more worried
About being entertained
Than my now tanned hide

Have you ever
Had a dream?
Well take it from me
We all have dreams

We all want to fly
Reach up and touch the sky,
We all want to see
What others think.
Take it from me
We all have dreams


It may be big
Like a skyscraper tall.
It may be small
Like a mouse’s paw


No matter how big
No matter how small
It’s not insignificant
Not at all.
So take from me
We all have dreams

Minds are like DVDs,
Menus .on replay.
They’re supposed to show the happy parts,
But mine just ruin the day.

Mine’s replay scenes of dread,
Of the ones I loathe and hate.
It replays scenes of pain,
The pain I helped create.

Watch me today
As my mind is torturing me,
With scenes of lust and lacking faith
Making me wish I could run away

I wish I could turn of the TV,
Replace the DVD
So I can be rid of this torment,
And these blackening scenes

Reach
Out of your mind
Imagine a hand
Give it a plan
Send it out
Filled with hope
Touch the heart
Of the one loved most

You know you're hot
I mean you're smokin'
There ain't nothing you not got
While I'm sitting here tokin.
While I'm on this trip
You've got the nicest eyes,
But the greatest hips.
Man girl, do you even try?
I can[t wait till you dance
So I can come join you
Your perfect beauty put me in a trance
While my heart you slew
But wen I come off this journey
All I've said is BS; baloney

How do I explain
For you to attain
That one of my kin
I hold in high distain

How do I express
How one who shares my genes
I wish I could turn him away
Burn him from the tree

How do I tell my family
That he’s not important to me
That if he were to die
I’d get over it sooner than the rest

They tested the one so true,
They test me and you.
Speakers of two-faced statements
Changing their views every second
With the serpent’s sly tongue
And the fox’s slick movements
They sway the populous
With shifting statements,
That just blow my mind away.

I'll be back
I'm taking a break
What I need to do
Is put my head on straight

My mind is a mess
of junk and sin
Its full of lust
And terrible stuff

My mind is lost
And outta control
Its thought of crossing many lines
Even death row

Please don't forget me
I hope to not be long
I hope that you
Won't even know I'm gone

What ever happened
To childhood’s play?
When you were considered innocent
Every day

What happens you turn teen?
That makes you crave ***
Either for real
Or on a screen

What will happen when you become an adult?
With a family of your own
And you get into a funk
And the cause is unknown.

And then it’s blamed with sin,
But sin is what became
Because you didn’t know how to handle it
And were afraid people would turn away

Pain is rain in the night
Hiding your tears from those in sight
From the lonely abuse
To the mental heights
Pain is rain in the night

Pain from those
Who have long since gone
And those who are left
Don’t care or bother at all

But loves first steps
Take the pain away
And the wind picks up
And sweeps you away

Then you start at the beginning
Of an unknown road
Hand in hand
With the one who filled the hole

It’s a creepy mist
That hides your sight
But through the pain
Creates a light
So you can see through
The pain in the night

I thought we were over
You went on by
And if only you knew
I still love you inside

You left me to cry
On that cold day
You left me to die
And went away

I see you at school
See you at the mall
When I see you flirt with them
I try not to bawl

I always wonder
What to do
If I can’t find
Someone like you

What did I do?
To lose you
Or did you choose to?
To let me go
And leave me ‘lone
In the only place
I can call home
I would give anything
To get you here
So I can wipe your tears
And take your fears

When you’re with them
I hope you see
This is the creature
You made me

This creature of sorrow
This creature of hate
This creature of pain
This creature won’t go away

I want it out
Of my head
So I can go on
And not dread

Dread on the life
That we had why I can’t
Get over the past
I should move on
Move away
So I don’t
Throw my life away
Look forward
Go headstrong
I know God
Will lead me on

And when he gives me
The one so true
They will lift me
From solitude

Then one day
I’ll look back
And wonder why
I am happy inside

Then I realize
If not for you
I couldn’t have risen
From my solitude

So I call you up
Catch up with you
Then at the end I say
“Thank-you”

I will not be **** on,
I will be the ****
In this world of peoples judgments
And conforming to fit

Call me a loser
Call me a *****
‘Cause I’m the one standing tall
When you’re holding a tin can …
Begging for tips

You’re chains feel heavy
You’re will is beat
You let your enemies
Call you weak

You trap yourself in a corner
You claim that you are free
Then you draw up imaginary borders
Claiming you can’t leave

You’ve been handed a life raft
But refuse to use it
You’d rather drown on this path
Than admit you can’t do it

You keep breaking the hearts
Of those close to you
Those who have been with you from the start
Don’t know how much longer they can stay with you

Let me be honest
For just one second
My brain is torturing me
My heart is aching

I need help
And I need it fast
My mind is stuck
On my memories of my addiction
I see those ladies every night
While I scream in my head

I have a razor blade close to my bed
And I struggle every night
To keep it from turning red

I don’t really like my family
Especially the one I call my bro
I sometimes want to go
Only to and never fro

I keep trying to live
But my heart is cold
I want someone to hold
But the love has grown cold

You don’t know how much it helps
To put this all out
And hopefully soon
I can get some rest
Then I can give you all
My very best

Ground cracking
Earth quaking
You try to seal
But keep on breaking

You wonder why
We cover our lies
Then we cry
And those lies multiply

But when we unearth
The truth so cold
We bury it again
And cleans out soul

Then we go out
Spreading lies like disease
Thinking that
The world will be free

But if you continue
In your ways
I promise you
You will never see
The world be free

They say don’t pity the dead
For the dead are out of life’s pain
But the dead also
Are out of life’s gain
Out of the history being made
Out of making their name
So yes they might be living in comfort
But no pain,
No gain

Little tiny beads
Vibrating in space
Connecting us all together
Like loving mates

Little tiny beads
Zillions of years old
Came from a start
That was growing old

Little tiny beads
The children of old starts
Came together
To form who we are

Little tiny beads
Connecting us all
Giving us a ****
Unthinkable ages old

A twirl of color
A flash of light
A series of masks
It's masquerade night

Full of laughter
Full of fright
It's never ending
Masquerade night

No one is who
You know to be
Everyone's hiding
Their pain in glee

Behind those masks
Are true peoples cares
But hey who cares
Its masquerade night

Maybe this race
We can start as a team
But we gotta condition
See if we make a machine

Yes we fit! The machine is almost done
Let's join hands
And on this track we run

No this broke
The machine fell apart
We gave up the race
When things got ****

Maybe this walk
We can start as friends
Throw away the machine
And bond like human beings

No one would believe
The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve dreamed
The things I believe

Because what I’ve seen
Is hard to believe
But if you lived like me
It would be reality

The things I’ve dreamed
I wish I could believe
Cause they’re so far from reality
Because humans can’t see
Dragons and fairy queens
Becoming human beings

The things I believe
Can’t be dreamed
They have to be lived
To not be pretend

The things I’ve seen
The things I’ve dreamed
The things I believe
Will stay with me
Till I leave

Do people really like me for me,
Or is it just out of pity?
The rejects pity
For being smart,
Fat,
Handicapped.
Is their sympathy real,
Or is it synthetic love because Im abnormal?

Do people really like my art
Because it moves them,
Or because I have terminal cancer?

You know I say,
“Be honest, be brutal, tell me the truth,”
But all I get is lies.
And Im tired of it
Tired of this ****
Exhausted of carrying this false motivation
Worn down by all this cheering
When its undeserved

So please don’t look at me
But in me
Don’t look at my stub of an arm,
Or dent in my nose
Look at my soul
Which I spill for you
On this cheap paper
So everyone can receive
What I spree

Ever ******* up?
Ever made a mistake?
Hey listen,
We all play that game.


Something slipped out,
Did the wrong thing.
That's okay,
We all play the game.


The game of being human,
Of living life in haste
The game of being impulsive,
And making mistakes every day.


So don't get down,
By mistakes upon you.
'Cause I know,
You’ve done it too.


So please forgive me
If I do wrong to you.
For when it’s my turn.
For the favor to be returned
It’ll be okay
It’ll work out someday.

Music to my Eyes: Caledonia
Let me tell you that I love you
That I think about you all the time
When I’m down and dreaming nightmares
You in my arms, the best joy I find
But if our love becomes endangered
And I become only a stranger
I will love you
Till the world dies
In holy fire

Let’s have some Fun together
And make many memories together
Share many laughs together
Enjoy each other’s passion together

I want to keep a log
Written in lines and stanzas
Of all the joys we bring
And all the rules we break

Please let me fill journals
Of the things we do together
Of the mountains we climb
And the valleys we tumble in
Let me put them together
In poems of love

Let’s go out
You and me
We’ll go running
Out of company

Running with shadows
Forcing us close
Running with the night
Protecting us whole

We can cry when we get back
Get angry when we return
But on our run
We’re chasing love

It’s Sixx AM
And I can’t help but think
Of all the love
Behind hard hearts
All the healing
Hidden in scars
All the angels
In devil horns

All of this good
Hidden under fleshy goo
Things that are immortal
Hidden inside mortal skin

Look underneath
Let the crust fall off
And light shine out
Let the world know
You are not your skin

The flashbacks keep coming
The more I tell myself, "Shut up Nathan"
The more I look like a maniac,
The more I struggle to live.

With the constant twitching
With the mental pains
With the memories of
my constant desires
Its driving me insane

What do you do
When you don’t know what to do
‘Cause your brain is gone
And your heart is too

What do you see
When all you can see
Is death and decay
All around thee

What do you touch
When all you can fee;
Is the coldness of others hearts
And the hatred of yours too

What do you hear
When all the sounds can hear
Are the cries of pain
And others tears

What do you smell
When all around you is death
And the scents so sweet
Aren’t what they seem to be
What can you taste
When you have tasted death
‘Cause everything you eat
Becomes bitter
And sour, not sweet

Ode to my blanket
All tattered and torn
To inndards so thin
And falling all out
To covering me up
Since I was six

This torn up old blanket
Toy Story based
Is Woody on one side
nd Buzz on the other.
Woody side up
Was always the best
It became the running joke
Even to today
That joke runs most


The blanket so old
If it could talk
such stories would be told
From forts in the living room
And fear in my bed
Joys with my family
To sadness alone

The blanket so aged
Has been there all days
When I was alone
It made things ok

Even to today
This blanket still covers me
In all my confusion
And insecurities
But this blanket one day
Will retire
Till it's Woody side up
On my funeral pyre

One day
One day
I’ll kick this drug
Full of intimacy
One day
I’ll stick to this drug
Full off happy chemicals
One day
I’ll hold her hand
And His
As I walk through those gates
And forget this pain

What do you think
When you see that woman on the screen
Do you think man that’s hot
Or ugh let’s not

It’s good if you say
Ugh let’s not
Because man that’s hot
Leaves your brain to rot

And man that’s hot
Makes your family distraught
And make you think of women
As an object
To be thrown away on the spot

If you’re ugh let’s not
And move to another plot
Spend life without an addiction
Ripping you apart
Then
You can love with all your heart

The pen is mightier than the sword
But how can that be?
The sword can **** a writer like me

But the pen can do things
Like stop an army in its tracks
Bring an empire to its knees,
It can even say something simple
Like a message of glee

But there is one weapon
Greater than both
We are taught to use it young
And with it more people are stung
Our voice

The voice of a martyr
One of the strongest there is
It echoes and rings
Like a resounding disc

The pen is mightier than the sword
But how can that be?
The sword can **** a writer like me

But the pen can do things
Like stop an army in its tracks
Bring an empire to its knees,
It can even say something simple
Like a message of glee

But there is one weapon
Greater than both
We are taught to use it young
And with it more people are stung
Our voice

The voice of a martyr
One of the strongest there is
It echoes and rings
Like a resounding disc

Don't shoot for perfection
For you'll certainly miss
Let perfection fall into place
Because what isn't known
Will bring the most bliss

Plentiful emptiness
All around me
Plentiful emptiness
As far as the eye can see

It’s a loving malice
That we humans share
A loving malice
That leaves us naked and bare

This joyful evil
That we cast upon each other
This joyful evil
That turns lovers into fighters

Happy death
When we leave this word
Happy death
It’s not what we deserve

Full of substance
Packed in a hard shell
As the heat of life
Is applied
The pressure builds
You start to expand
On the verge of breaking
Then all the sudden it grows dark
As people put a lid over you and forget about you
Then you pop and everyone crowds around you
But not to help but to eat you like piranhas
While they enjoy the entertainment

Full of substance
Packed in a hard shell
As the heat of life
Is applied
The pressure builds
You start to expand
On the verge of breaking
Then all the sudden it grows dark
As people put a lid over you and forget about you
Then you pop and everyone crowds around you
Not  to help but to eat you like piranhas
While they enjoy the entertainment

Well this is great
My pre-mature heartbreak
But at least now I see
We are never going to be

I thought after once
I would learn to stay away
But then we started talking
And I knew I couldn’t stay

I tried to get you back
Back to our old standings
Then you dropped
That small-mighty phrase

But it’ll be ok
My heart’s hidden away
Wearing its duct tape mask
Feeling the same pain

So now I see
Pre-maturely
Now I see
I can’t give up on we

Reality
The Sherlock Holmes
Of the imaginative world
Finding our secrets
Solving the case shedding the light
And bleaching dyes

Romance
The keeper os secrets
In the imaginative world
Hiding eyes
Whispering lies
Casting shadows
And dyeing blinds

The cat and mouse game
Goes on forever
Between two lovers
Till the weasel is popped
Romance is stopped
And Reality reveals
What Romance concealed

Oh Lord you stir these embers
That have lain so long cold
Over a story of a unborn’s struggle
Far greater than my own

You have painted a smile
On a statue’s face
Whom believed was sculpted with a frown

God you have struck the match
You started the drop
I pray tonight
That the wind will stop

Reminiscing
Nature’s way of showing
Those old-timey memories

Your first true love
Your first heartbreak
Your third-grade strait As
Your ninth grade strait Ds
Reminiscing
Those old-timey memories

The picture is terrible
All faded and stained
The sound is choppy
And voices drained

But yet we long to be transported
Back to those old times
So we relive the past
Or get on track

Reminiscing
Nature’s way of showing
You are who you are
So don’t long to change the past

Reminiscing
Nature’s way of showing
Those old-timey memories

Your first true love
Your first heartbreak
Your third-grade strait As
Your ninth grade strait Ds
Reminiscing
Those old-timey memories

The picture is terrible
All faded and stained
The sound is choppy
And voices drained

But yet we long to be transported
Back to those old times
So we relive the past
Or get on track

Reminiscing
Nature’s way of showing
You are who you are
So don’t long to change the past

Feel the rhythm
Feel the rhume c’mon y’all
It’s healing time

Let the beat
Touch your soul
Grease up those joints
And get ready to roll

Have that bass
Rock your world
To where the feelings lost
And love endures

Let the music move you
Till your body rocks and head spins
Let its powers touch you
So its healing can begin

On that day
What will you do?
When you meet your Lord
For round two

And you find out
What your thoughts told you
About the Lord
Are not even true

And you will realize
That what you do
In the Lord’s eyes
Cannot be denied
So on that day
What will you do?
When the Lord
Calls upon you?

You see the book
In the air
And wonder,
“Is my name in there?’

Here my word
Prepare for the day
So you don’t have to wonder
And God won’t keep you away

Wrists of red
Eyes of black
All I know
Is steel has my back

It manifests pain
Into something real
As I run my blood
And try to heal

For this thing
That’s gripping me
Is making my life
Go through this strife

Gun to head
Plans all set
‘Bout to break
This caps head

And on that second
All I see
Is the Lord’s face
Staring at me

He says to me
“What have you done?
Hope you had fun,
But your time is done”

“But if you tell me
You will try
To make a better life
You won’t die”

So you wake up
On a hospital bed
You reach up
And grab your head

You feel the mistake
And you realize
You have a *****

To dig your soul
Out of its hole
So the world will know
God wants all of us to come home

To be with him
Forever last
And now you know
He wants you back.