You are like the wind
You are always there
And to deny you
Would prove as foolhardy
As denying the sun
It's shine

Sometimes
The sound of you
Or how you make me feel
Just feels right
And levels me
Against the troubles I hold close

Other times
You take the heat away
And make me feel cold

Sometimes,
You blow away
My sense of comfort
And leave me feeling vulnerable

You are like the wind
Never to be denied
When the wind is too harsh,
I choose to stay inside.

If I could count the moments
That I've waited or wanted you
I would be waiting

And you leave me waiting

Sometimes,
It's as simple as wanting to hear your voice
Or a hello
It's always simple
Because I don't ask much

I keep waiting
Because I want to
Whatever you do to get to me
It works
Despite everything before
That tells me better

I wait for you
Because I understand the possibility
The possible future if you give up
The demons weighing you down

I won't wait forever
Because I've got **** to do too

But right now,
I'm waiting on you

You got me
After everything I'd been through
I wasn't a fan
I absolutely did not like that

I wasn't happy about being happy
If that makes any ****** sense
But I wasn't

You had a certain way about you
That I couldn't ignore
No matter how hard I tried

The way you smiled
Laughed
And how I would just see you being happy
Left me in a spot
That I couldn't escape
No matter how hard I wanted to or tried

I still don't like it
Because you have my heart
I am not okay with that
Even if I trust you
It doesn't make it okay

We're all weirdos
And subject to reality
No one can change
How you make me feel
When we are around each other

I worry though
That if it doesn't work out
I will never find someone else
That I share this same connection with

And I'm tired of saying this

It's been so long
That's I've forgotten many things
Pertaining to you

What you smell like
How it felt to be next to you
The joy you used to put in my heart
These things aren't necessarily forgotten
But their memory has lost it's meaning
And that part of my life now seems unreal

I remember when we parted ways
That I felt lost and that I was confused
About what the future may hold
Falling in love again, with someone else
Seemed impossible at the time

Yet, here I am now
Wondering why I ever even fell in love with you
To begin with

When the heat of the moment was gone
There wasn't enough left to make it worthwhile

I won't disgrace our time together
By saying it was a waste of time
But I know now that true love
Is unforgettable

I've forgotten so much about you

Many things push us
To a point
Where we feel
We are losing our mind
It's just a matter of knowing when to grow
And submerge yourself in a cocoon

To protect and grow yourself
Through hell or earthly troubles
Never forget that happiness also
Pushes us to change and adapt

Love teaches us to look closer
Betrayal teaches us to be more skeptical
But somewhere in the middle
We can be reasonable people

I've felt before that I was losing my mind
No one can take that from me but myself

It's difficult to say goodbye
Especially to you
I knew parting ways wasn't forever
So I said it as we kissed
Even though it hurts
It's nice to know you're missed

Make no mistake
I need to get away from here
Somewhere to hide and escape
Somewhere to disappear

The things and people in my past
That made me happy and I held dear
In their absence, the void created
Is now filled with fear

Fear of the unknown
A path with no direction
Nowhere to call home

Leave my past behind
Before it consumes me whole
Makes things right
Reclaim some lost time

I write poems all the time
Mostly in my head
There are a lot that never come out
Little ideas and words
Bounce around always
I even see things poetically
It's taught me to recognize beauty
That was hidden before
It has brought more passion to my life
And with it, more pain
But I thoroughly enjoy
The ideas and words
That bounce around in my head
And sharing it with you

Right person, wrong time
When we met
I knew, exactly
You automatically had my heart

Resistance as they say was futile
Our chemistry and cosmic friends
Were making more plays
Than our hands could play against
We sure as hell couldn't bluff

We were both in pain
After finding ourselves somewhere confused
We had planned for the rest of our lives
And been abused

Wrong time
We both have too much to fix
Right now, but we will
When it comes together
Will we be together?

You took my pain away
As I did yours
I know this is true
I saw you smile and heard you laugh
With me
It was the most sincere
We had both lost that for so long

I won't promise that I will wait
I don't expect you to either
But know that I will think of you
I know better than to say something
Ridiculous

Like, you were the "one"
Or something like that
I know better

I think you are a good catch
The best yet
I am not throwing you back

But I do believe in possibilities
And the future is ours
Should we take it

You made me feel special
Like I've always wanted to feel
I can't throw that away
Absolutely not
What we have is one in a billion

One way or another
You will always have a place in my heart
Because you're special to me too
I feel better just for having met you

As cold winter's wind
Touches our skin
It robs us fiercely
Of our precious warmth
It takes without asking
But serves it's part

All the seasons have purpose
And winter serves to remind us
That it's nice to be home and cozy
If you have someone to love
Hold them a little closer

A warmer tomorrow is never
That far off

I'm tired of love poems
The insomnia that comes
When things don't work out
I believe that everything happens for a reason
But I'm tired of it

I'm tired of always being tested
Of being made to feel that I'm not good enough
I'm tired of caring
And I'm tired of feeling
I'm tired of being tired

I know that happiness is within reach
I've touched it, if not briefly
So I know what it's like
When it's gone

It's never as simple as cheering up
Or feeling better
It takes time
Sometimes a lot of time
Just to be reminded that things aren't so bad

I'm tired of wearing a smile
That is untrue

Beautiful, yet broken
Not a lost cause
Just lost
Waiting for the right time
After so much wasted time
Wanting to love again
But not ready
Having survived
She wants to finally live
To find someone
That will hold her heart
With gentle hands
To leave the past behind
And start anew

Excuse me, miss
I couldn't help but notice you
You were a ray of light
Projecting through the darkness

You have a certain air about you
That I cannot miss
Your energy flows beautifully
And your smile tells all

Whatever you've got going on
I recognize your happiness
That is more than you know
Or maybe
You just know

The way you laugh and smile
Reminds me of other times
That I am terrified of forgetting
Because I have been there too

I try to hide my smile
Because I understand
But you caught me

The words only mean so much
I'm talking with my hands
European blood
But I still wait and contemplate

Sometimes when it's cloudy
Or things have you down
It's difficult to remember
What has kept your feet
On the ground

We all can give up
Or keep moving on
The things that keep us going
Deserve a little love, unbound

I lose sight of these things all the time
I get reminded by the little things
Forever and ever

If it wasn't for those little things
That I have to take time to notice
I would have given up long ago

It's the bigger things that can drown us
When they don't work out
They shadow everything small
And shut them out

But the small things are always there
Despite our distractions
We have to be aware

They are the ones working
Striving to there and noticed
Not worried about all the *******
Waiting for that moment
When someone stops
And takes a moment
To care

You must not realize
How much you are hurting me
Unless you are trying to
In which case
I don't get it

We all have our faults
Weaknesses and shorts
I have mine
I've never denied them
I am more than aware

But
You are hurting me
Again and again

Why would you do such a thing?
I don't think I deserve it
But maybe I do
Is there something I missed?

Did I do something wrong?
Or are you taking out
Past love's agressions
On me?

You are a ****** fool
If you keep this up
This type of action
Will only make you
Continue to lose
And ultimately
End up, alone

I have done my best
To be unselfish with you
And I still am

But you are breaking my heart
Way more than I can handle
Or deserve

I am a good man
Even if I'm not enough of a man
For you

I think
That is your problem
Not mine
I think you need to ask yourself
How much of a woman
You can handle to be
At least where you are
Right now

Regardless
We can't end things like this
If we do
It will only be both of our loss
Swimming in forever regret

Every time a breakup happens
Someone loses a best friend
Someone to talk to
To confide in
To give into
To take from

There is a wide open sea
Full of potentials

But it's terrible
When you lose someone
You've already found

When I met you,
I knew I was in trouble
You were a dream to me
Turned into reality

The things I had done in the past
To protect myself from being hurt
Shattered like glass
I had no powers against your affections
I fell in love with your soul

You were the first woman
To look at me, inside and out
And see me for who I am
You convinced me to give love
A chance again

I realize now is the wrong time
The right time may never be

My short time with you
Set the high water mark
That may never be broken
I can’t help but be thankful, however
Because of you
Things long dead inside have awoken

I have never experienced
A sweeter or more passionate love
I don’t have to wonder anymore
Because I know it’s possible and true

I may never find another
But I really enjoyed my time with you

You taught me how to love once more
I had long before shut that door
With that door opened
Other things broke free

I’ve been reminded of
What it’s like to have lost
To miss someone
The pain of having a hole in your heart
That can’t just be filled with anything or anyone

If even for a moment
I know what we had was true
The simple truth now
With all of my heart
I just miss you

For all it's worth
Sometimes no matter
How hard you try
It won't be enough
The trick is to never give up
No matter how many times you fall

She ****** my **** and fell in love
I mentioned that it was a bad idea
That I was broken and not ready
She pushed for us to go steady
I found myself not listening
As I had already predicted
Yet she kept on keeping on
And wouldn't leave it alone
Trying to fix me and change me
I knew from the start that wouldn't happen
But in the end
She still ******
She was the one that needed fixed

The ghosts of my past
Continue to haunt me
They stalk in the night
As I try for sleep

Slowly into my thoughts
Their presence made known to only me
Reminding me of heartaches
Of what my eyes can't unsee

I fight them with hope
And sometimes that is enough
I am left alone for a while
But it never seems to last

I never seem able
To fully defeat the ghosts of my past

This stitch in time
Will one day only be a memory
Eventually to be lost
To forever's eternity

The pain and sadness
Happiness and bliss
Fades away and dies
Forgotten to time's abyss

Make the moments count
Even if they will fade away
You may not get a second chance
You may not live to live another day

No matter the pain
We have to be able to deal with it
Be a good man and know
You are not the one

It's nothing to ruin your life
You really have to listen
We are all hurt out there
Just listen

The world will tell you
Ridiculous things
It will say that because you are a man
You are at fault
But that isn't always the truth

A heart broken
Doesn't have to make sense
Even when there's something to give
Bottom line is where to live within your heart
And begin again

Never worry when everything is out of your control
Just stand by and wait for it to happen
******* absurd
And just watch it happen

No matter how much you love someone

I've stayed young of heart
And even now
I may be less serious
Than I was as a child

I'm not sure if I'm walking backwards
Or it's because I see things differently
But I would like to think
It's a good thing

As a child
I was aware I was a child
I wanted things to be better
And felt angry when the adults couldn't give it

Watching all that surrounds me
I grasp now that age doesn't define us
It only gives us our experiences
And teaches us to not let little things
Break our hearts

It also teaches us
That little things can mend our hearts

Every time I start to get used to
You being gone
You appear in my dreams
And remind me of what I'm missing

As I was adding the last few pieces
Of putting myself back together
After being broken so many times before
You broke me again

What doesn't **** you makes you stronger is *******

It makes us resentful
Hateful
Skeptical
Overprotective
Afraid

It kills our innocence piece by piece
Until we are finally dead inside
Incapable of loving or caring
A burnt out shell of the person you once were
No longer yourself

You were broken
You told me
But I could see it

I picked you up
Told you how to stand again
After you had been knocked down
I didn't judge you because I understood

If you want to do this on  your own
You are making a mistake
There is nothing wrong
With letting someone who loves you
Help you

I am here for you, regardless

Life isn't fair
It will continue to hand us *******
This is reality

It is our perspective
What we choose to see
How we see things
That make the difference

I am happy for my time with you

My body aches
My mind is tired
I wonder if this amount of work
Will let me
Reap what I sow?

I put my time in but now I expect it back
I've given you my time
Quality time
But what have you given me?
Just enough to get by
And survive?

Life isn't fair
But I expect respect
I only have so much patience
And you are trying it
Really, you are

If you disrespect me one more time
I'm gonna hit you so hard
Your own mother won't recognize you

I will put you in your place

I will talk down to you like the little man you are

Not that I expect you to learn anything
Or change your selfish ways
But it will make me feel better

If Karma's a *****
Then she's on my side this time
You've got it coming
It will be from the blindside

As much as I know
All that I've learned
I'm taking a chance with you
A shot in the dark
No telling what the future may hold
If I should be the one to hold you
Or another
Being unsure is the struggle
We have to combat our doubts
Even when happiness is beating down our door
Being tricked
When trouble is wearing a disguise
Gives potential, demise
Letting the past **** the future
Is a hole you sit in
Fear of the unknown
Forever wandering
Never home
Wanting to move on
Not knowing what direction to take
Lost inside yourself
Not sure who to ask for help
Life goes on
With or without you
Never asking for permission

You fell under the bus
Harsh realities grabbed you
To the point of not being able to escape
You dealt with it
By not dealing with it

Your doc gave you medicine
To shut it up
Make you feel better
Why be stressed
When everything just feels good?

You got stuck with your children
And were but a child yourself
You had always dreamed of something perfect
But reality taught you something different

Responsibilities broke your back and mind
The pills you popped made it tolerable
But we ran rampant
We learned life's lessons without you

I know you did what you had to do
Or what you were told to do
We all need an escape sometimes
But you escaped your responsibility

We are still here
And not in too bad of shape
You did something right
I thank you for that

You taught me about respect
But I also learned about pain
I learned to also do the opposite
And never let myself be broken

This is a poem I will never read to you, mother
I judge you but I also forgive you

I cannot even imagine
But I've never stopped trying to

We've all been through pain
It hurts and sometimes scars
Scars make us stronger
Only to live on

To be honest
I tried to keep things
Slow, with you

I knew where you were in life
And that you were looking for
Someone to save you
I can be that man
But I have my own life
To fix

I sincerely do love you
And I want what's best
For you and me
For the first time ever
I realize that I am probably
The best person for someone
And that person is you

I feel myself getting spread thin
And I wonder
Can I do this again?

I understand your restriction
At falling in love again
But you did this
I have given you my heart
It can't be broken again
Because I refuse
You deserve to be happy
The biggest obstacle in front of you
Is what you choose

There was nothing I could do
To prevent
Falling for you
I tried and ridiculously failed
All I can do is be there
For you

Although being in love
Was something I missed
I wasn't looking for it
Now that I am reminded
It just seems like too much to lose

But I can't help it with you

A kiss
And it starts
I feel something different with you
It changes what is inside
Makes me forget my past
Who hurt me
Their lies and abuse

I still worry
Because now I have someone to lose
I let you in
So be careful with my heart
It's fragile and doesn't need torn apart

You and I are in the same boat
Hardly lost at sea
If we work together
We can keep it afloat

Don't even bother to think
That you are in this alone
Journeys through life will take you places
Sometimes trip you up

Just keep standing back up

It's easy to say
Get along
Get over it
Don't be upset
Tomorrow is a new day

It's nice to be told these things
When it's not small talk
When you know someone
Actually means it

It's difficult to understand
When we don't even understand
What is happening
And we're broken

It is so easy to push those away
That are telling us the truths
We don't want to hear
It's a seed that grows into reality
Don't set yourself up
To be told
"I told you so"

Believing in something unbelievable
Is what has pushed the world to this point
We are at a standoff now
Because we believe in different things

But, it remains the same

It's not that hard to get along
And most of us do
The media wants to tell us otherwise
But they play to the fool

If you add to the hate,
You are only a tool
We are built together from the ground up
Yet, we fight
From how we see the skies above

I remember being small
The adults were in charge
They knew what they were doing

If something made me sad
It was going to be okay
If I was mad
I got told to calm down

I was stubborn
I fought
I resisted
But I listened

It took becoming a parent
To understand
You don't know what the ******* are doing either
Even though you might know a little bit more

The worst day of my life back then
Was if my bike tire was flat
Or my videogame wouldn't work
If I didn't get my way,
I would selfishly act like a ****

Being a child and innocent
Slipped out of our fingers
At a speed we couldn't stop
Never seeing the picture for how big it really was

My first role in being an adult
Was having my first dog
And taking it for walks

You have to take a **** at 2AM?
Sure, why not?
I will take you out
Because you are my friend

The love I felt for this dog, and friend
Was put to the test
When it was hit by a cab
My choice to euthanize
My friend, her end

I joined the army
Only a year or so after
And became a father somewhere in the mix

I've always treated my son
Like a future man
Not telling him what he can't
But what he can

I understand the pain of being a parent now
But I accept this blessing as something true
I wouldn't trade it for the world
Would you?

An infinite joke was played upon me
When I realized paradise
Was nothing more than but a dream
The illusion feigned proof
Distorted my reality
Blinded to the truth
Overwhelmed by too much of what I feel
Unaware of my inability to see
Beyond my own hopes
Of making this dream corporeal

I could see in your eyes
That something was calling you
Pulling you away
Making you question everything
You were wanting more

Although it wasn't on purpose
I was tying you down
You were young and inexperienced
You needed to learn things the hard way
I just couldn't protect you from that anymore

What we had wasn't false
But it wasn't made to last
The best thing I ever did for you
Was to let you go

You wonder if our love is true
And are having doubts
This I understand
I don't blame you

It is true however
That love is terrifying
And the things that die inside
When it doesn't work
Sometimes never come back

I am also frightened
Of being hurt again
It took much courage
To take a chance with you
I am not privy
To what the future may hold
I didn't know what to say to you
So I wrote it in a poem

I know that we have something special
If we nourish it
It will grow
But I cannot force you to love me
Nor would I if I could

I care for you and am here for you
Anything worth having
Is worth fighting for
And the risk that comes with that
I think is worth taking
But that's just my point of view

I want to take you
Somewhere away from here
Somewhere to be together
A place to disappear

Hide from the world
For a little while
A place with the freedom
To have the innocence of a child

How I would like to free you
From the baggage that weighs you down
To take you somewhere away from here
Where happiness exists abound

As the sun warms my body,
Your heart warms my soul.
To know a love like this,
Is to know true bliss.
And to think it all started
With just a simple kiss.

We're only people
Misunderstood
Fighting to be heard
When we should just realize
Underlying
We are all the same

Fighting about fighting
Everyone loses
If there is a God
That God would never
Encourage violence
Doesn't make any ****** sense

It's about love
It starts with our children
Telling them
To welcome their neighbor
With open arms
To share culture,
Not abhor it

To tell them
Because someone is different
Don't judge them
Don't hate them
Get to know them
They probably have something to teach you

The world is a crazy place
Always has been
But now, because of the internet
We know about it

It's okay that we're all different
But we (not the extreme people) want the same things
A safe place to sleep
Somewhere to go home to
A future for our children

If you are a person that isn't extreme
It's time now, to speak up
Let others know
(Especially anyone extreme)
That the rest of us have a voice too

**** the hate
Don't be afraid to debate

I am a somewhat educated man
I read, I learn, I listen
Above all
I observe

I see all of the hate
The anger, the pettiness, selfishness
And I wonder

How much did you bring on yourself?

We are all different
As humans,
We flourish
Because of this

Yet we forget

So easy to point a finger
Instead of trying
To understand
That someone is living a different life
Than you

Before being the end all be all
Be smart
Not dumb
It's not that hard

Judging people is inherent
It would be dumb not to
To a point...
But don't be that *******

If you're religious, fine
But, judge yourself
Before others
If you're political, fine
But, judge yourself
First and foremost

Honestly, who's horn are you tooting?

I don't need a 9 to 5
To use up all my time

Walking down the wild side
Showing what's on the inside
Just to live a little
Dancing for the moments
Instead of waiting
For that one song to play

Waiting for perfection
Will leave you with nothing
Except wasted time
Something as vivid as grey

Imperfection and perfection;
All a matter of perception.
What we see is what we get.
This rollercoaster ride,
Is far from over yet.

It is said that only fools rush in
To that, I must disagree
A magnetic attraction
Trying to fight it
Is like trying to deny
Mother Nature's raw power
Sometimes it just feels right
Because it is right
Saying only fools rush in is wrong
Only fools rush out

There is no beginning
And there is no end
Time isn't your enemy
But it isn't your friend
The events already in motion
Forever roll on like the ocean

Don't lie to me
Don't sneak around
Stand by my side
Don't do things you have to hide

Be honest with me
A necessary policy
Open your heart
Expose your soul
So I can see

Believe in me
So I can believe in you
Trust in my empathy

The love that I give isn't free
It comes with a price
The price that I ask
Is mutual respect and patience
Especially when the going is tough
And times are unkind

I knew from the start
You called ahead
Reserved
Prime real estate in my heart

Talking of the past
A similar thing
Was being burned
We gave our all
To someone
That would never last

I agree, it's terrible
You think you know someone
Then they bail when you need them most
Making you look like the fool

Been there, done that
A cliche I realize
Point being...
I understand

The past, although harsh
Gives me strength
Believing in something new
To move beyond these scars

I appreciate you for you
(No one is perfect but I do really like you)

I'm glad I went through the pain from before
It caused me to learn of myself
What I was lacking
What was broken
What I could restore

You've given me more than hope
I will never forget that
Thank you for giving me a second chance at love
Something true

Thank you for being you

None of us
Want to acknowledge
Getting older
But there comes a time
When it's unavoidable

Waking up early is never fun
But once it's painful
You know
The aches and pains that weren't earned
Are here to stay

Sometimes it's just realizing
The world is different
A moment to consider
What the hell happened
What did I miss?

Understanding that you were there
Through the entire span
And that much time
Passed and eluded you
Walked up to your doorstep
Knocked, and said
"Hey, I hope you hadn't forgotten about me!"

*******!!!  
Ten years have blown by
Just like that!?!
After the initial shock is gone
It makes sense
The aches and pains were earned

There is a reason the days pass differently
Getting a little older
Comes with it's own blessings

If I were a penguin
I'd search the lands
And find you the best pebble
I would make you mine

If I were a goose
I'd fly with you for life
We'd fly into the sunset
I would make you mine

If I were a banana
I would peel for you
But I wouldn't split
I would make you mine

I'm none of these things however
I'm just a human
I can still find you a pebble
But I can't fly and I'm not high in potassium

Can I still make you mine?