Every day you **** me
Then send me to heaven

You are like the wind
You are always there
And to deny you
Would prove as foolhardy
As denying the sun
It's shine

Sometimes
The sound of you
Or how you make me feel
Just feels right
And levels me
Against the troubles I hold close

Other times
You take the heat away
And make me feel cold

Sometimes,
You blow away
My sense of comfort
And leave me feeling vulnerable

You are like the wind
Never to be denied
When the wind is too harsh,
I choose to stay inside.

If I could count the moments
That I've waited or wanted you
I would be waiting

And you leave me waiting

Sometimes,
It's as simple as wanting to hear your voice
Or a hello
It's always simple
Because I don't ask much

I keep waiting
Because I want to
Whatever you do to get to me
It works
Despite everything before
That tells me better

I wait for you
Because I understand the possibility
The possible future if you give up
The demons weighing you down

I won't wait forever
Because I've got **** to do too

But right now,
I'm waiting on you

You got me
After everything I'd been through
I wasn't a fan
I absolutely did not like that

I wasn't happy about being happy
If that makes any ****** sense
But I wasn't

You had a certain way about you
That I couldn't ignore
No matter how hard I tried

The way you smiled
Laughed
And how I would just see you being happy
Left me in a spot
That I couldn't escape
No matter how hard I wanted to or tried

I still don't like it
Because you have my heart
I am not okay with that
Even if I trust you
It doesn't make it okay

We're all weirdos
And subject to reality
No one can change
How you make me feel
When we are around each other

I worry though
That if it doesn't work out
I will never find someone else
That I share this same connection with

And I'm tired of saying this

It's been so long
That's I've forgotten many things
Pertaining to you

What you smell like
How it felt to be next to you
The joy you used to put in my heart
These things aren't necessarily forgotten
But their memory has lost it's meaning
And that part of my life now seems unreal

I remember when we parted ways
That I felt lost and that I was confused
About what the future may hold
Falling in love again, with someone else
Seemed impossible at the time

Yet, here I am now
Wondering why I ever even fell in love with you
To begin with

When the heat of the moment was gone
There wasn't enough left to make it worthwhile

I won't disgrace our time together
By saying it was a waste of time
But I know now that true love
Is unforgettable

I've forgotten so much about you

The heat and oxygen course through your lungs like a temporary flame

One sweet dull second of numbness

All they can see is an empty vessel; an unstained body, with from the looks of it, not a care in the world

But they are simply decomposing from the inside out

No doubt, they will be a platform of overt despair by the end of the night

The sight will give a writer something to write about, an empath something to cry about, and a lover something to worry about

Destruction is infused in every cell of their body

When it comes down to choice, there is not one

It feels to them as if the days inevitably, and relentlessly, cease to end in the immense amount of pain instilled in every ounce of their being

Dreading tomorrow as if it's a terminal sickness

Once you have lost hope, it seems there is no fire left to burn

The time that they have left in the world will be filled with cheap cigarettes, Irish car bombs, and lifeless friends

Closely comparable to a dying tree; close to expired, and still so beautiful

Many things push us
To a point
Where we feel
We are losing our mind
It's just a matter of knowing when to grow
And submerge yourself in a cocoon

To protect and grow yourself
Through hell or earthly troubles
Never forget that happiness also
Pushes us to change and adapt

Love teaches us to look closer
Betrayal teaches us to be more skeptical
But somewhere in the middle
We can be reasonable people

I've felt before that I was losing my mind
No one can take that from me but myself