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Nathan Pival Dec 2015
You were broken
You told me
But I could see it

I picked you up
Told you how to stand again
After you had been knocked down
I didn't judge you because I understood

If you want to do this on  your own
You are making a mistake
There is nothing wrong
With letting someone who loves you
Help you

I am here for you, regardless

Life isn't fair
It will continue to hand us *******
This is reality

It is our perspective
What we choose to see
How we see things
That make the difference

I am happy for my time with you
Nathan Pival Dec 2015
My body aches
My mind is tired
I wonder if this amount of work
Will let me
Reap what I sow?

I put my time in but now I expect it back
I've given you my time
Quality time
But what have you given me?
Just enough to get by
And survive?

Life isn't fair
But I expect respect
I only have so much patience
And you are trying it
Really, you are

If you disrespect me one more time
I'm gonna hit you so hard
Your own mother won't recognize you

I will put you in your place

I will talk down to you like the little man you are

Not that I expect you to learn anything
Or change your selfish ways
But it will make me feel better

If Karma's a *****
Then she's on my side this time
You've got it coming
It will be from the blindside
Nathan Pival Dec 2015
As much as I know
All that I've learned
I'm taking a chance with you
A shot in the dark
No telling what the future may hold
If I should be the one to hold you
Or another
Being unsure is the struggle
We have to combat our doubts
Even when happiness is beating down our door
Being tricked
When trouble is wearing a disguise
Gives potential, demise
Letting the past **** the future
Is a hole you sit in
Fear of the unknown
Forever wandering
Never home
Wanting to move on
Not knowing what direction to take
Lost inside yourself
Not sure who to ask for help
Life goes on
With or without you
Never asking for permission
Nathan Pival Dec 2015
You fell under the bus
Harsh realities grabbed you
To the point of not being able to escape
You dealt with it
By not dealing with it

Your doc gave you medicine
To shut it up
Make you feel better
Why be stressed
When everything just feels good?

You got stuck with your children
And were but a child yourself
You had always dreamed of something perfect
But reality taught you something different

Responsibilities broke your back and mind
The pills you popped made it tolerable
But we ran rampant
We learned life's lessons without you

I know you did what you had to do
Or what you were told to do
We all need an escape sometimes
But you escaped your responsibility

We are still here
And not in too bad of shape
You did something right
I thank you for that

You taught me about respect
But I also learned about pain
I learned to also do the opposite
And never let myself be broken

This is a poem I will never read to you, mother
I judge you but I also forgive you

I cannot even imagine
But I've never stopped trying to
Nathan Pival Dec 2015
We've all been through pain
It hurts and sometimes scars
Scars make us stronger
Only to live on
Nathan Pival Dec 2015
To be honest
I tried to keep things
Slow, with you

I knew where you were in life
And that you were looking for
Someone to save you
I can be that man
But I have my own life
To fix

I sincerely do love you
And I want what's best
For you and me
For the first time ever
I realize that I am probably
The best person for someone
And that person is you

I feel myself getting spread thin
And I wonder
Can I do this again?

I understand your restriction
At falling in love again
But you did this
I have given you my heart
It can't be broken again
Because I refuse
You deserve to be happy
The biggest obstacle in front of you
Is what you choose

There was nothing I could do
To prevent
Falling for you
I tried and ridiculously failed
All I can do is be there
For you

Although being in love
Was something I missed
I wasn't looking for it
Now that I am reminded
It just seems like too much to lose

But I can't help it with you
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