The words all jumbled in my head
      I can't say what I truly want to
  Too much is happening in my mind
                 All the memories
                 All that was said
   I guess all I'm really trying to say is         that I still love you...
          I'm so sorry I had to ruin things.

The worst part is that
       this all stopped because of me
                It was all my fault
        All because of one mistake
               One mistake I made

2:33 & here I am
Thinking back at what we had
It was like no other
The best I ever had
The best we ever had
You've been on my mind a lot now
Don't seem to know why
It's been so long
I just can't seem to let you go yet

Thin lines.
Blood pouring.
Tears dripping.
Hands shaking.
Pain leaving.
Situations forgotten.
              -N.U

Of course I know.
      I know this will not solve anything.
I know this is only hurting me.
I know.
       I don't do it for problem solving, but for relief.
That's what you don't know.
You don't know how it makes me feel.
How it helps me feel better about myself.
How it somehow, even for just a couple seconds, it makes me forget about why I am doing this.
You don't know.
                         -N.U

If you aren't thinking about it all the time, is it really love?

I sit there & wonder .
Wonder why you left me .
Why you suddenly gave up.
Why I was never good enough for you.
Why I let you become such a big part of me.
Why?
                 -N.U