My beloved,
The night is orange with the oppression of city against cloud. I sit outside, staring blankly at the exposed brick of another building as mosquitos prey upon my distraction. My heart cries out for you as I do - we ache together in the solitude of our nights. I do not know of the future, for all I feel is the cold knife of your absence. All I own is hope, hope in the anguish I hold, the longing that serves as proof of the intensity of our love. Though I know we will be together soon, I hold our nightly funeral, guarding our ashes and awaiting our ressurection. This death that is worse than death consumes me, yet day forces my face to change into one of complicity. If those who surround me could only feel how much I yearn for you, they would leave me silently by our tomb. However, I stand alone, a woman with her eyes upon the horizon, searching always for her sailor. I touch the Atlantic with the knowledge that it is the only obstacle that stands between us, and embrace it as a friend rather than a rival to be conquered. Soon, this sea will deliver me into your arms, and soon I will no longer serve as sentinel to our funeral pyre. Your hand will touch my shoulder, awakening me from this reverie, a long-forgotten dream of the past.