You sit by the headstone
Of the lover you lost
Does his spirit still roam
Why was he taken from you and at what cost

You cry loud sobs of tears
Crying more loudly hoping he hears

You sense a presence
From beyond the grave
Praying that is you that he'll save

He's a ghost now you see
He's filled only with dread
A spirit to wander not free but dead

As  he reaches out to hug you
All around you see red

I do not smile
I do not laugh
I live my life in denial
Cause you were so vile

You may think of me as a happy person
But you don't know me

I always try to get by
With a smile plastered on my face
This is not the case

I am a master of deception
I am an exception

You see what I want you to see
You hear what I want you to hear
You see my fear

Am I a hermit because I like to be alone
No need for companionship
I am on my own
Just me and my heart of stone

I know when I'm alone no one will hurt me
Because if you seen what I've seen
You too would wish you were free

When you hurt me
I didn't care whether I lived or died
I wish you could have seen the times that I cried
It's all because of you
All the times you yelled
F* what you think
This is hell
I feel like your punching bag
And I think you should die ***
All feel now is rage and pain
And it's left me feeling tired and drained
You don't try to cooperate
And I wonder if this is my d* fate
So sometimes I wish I couldn't hear
And that I could ignore you forever
And live the rest of my life without fear
You will never be missed
You made me so ******
Now not being able to hear you is my only wish