crying in silence
i know i cant partake
volatile toxic poison
i feel love but its so bruised
and tattered and its not worth
taking out of its box
not worth nurturing
because all it needs
is a bit of friction
and it will explode
not playing that game again

Mr..Man, im watching you
rake your leaves like a facade
hiding behind your piles
smelling of onions
sit in smoke
watch it unfurl from my ears
we see math
eye holes
where are my eyes?
i fed them gave them to the shake
blind but feels everything
more smoke
inhale mud
cold
painless
blind
death
denied by the wretched
i am wretched
poison makes happy faces
behind my lids
pots and pans set up like a drum kit
wooden spoons
death
hungry mailboxes waiting
for the man
open toothy smiles
the two wheeled monster
inhabited by green monkeys
forever pedaling making the rounds
smoke almost at the end waiting
for the death smush
embers cooling like my coffee
wooded thrones
noisy mechanical birdss
death wish falling out of the air
found it hiding by myself
in the quiet hole
prolonged by love
soon it shall die

STOP!
wading around in my oatmeal your feet are too big and i fear you'll break the bowl
mouthword form NASTY!vendettas
hot mud
sluicing through your fingers in and around the cup
SQUELCH!
drink it eat it smear it all over your face
DO NOT
hunt snakes for they will eat your brains like the paint you really are
in your ear
PILE DRIVE IT
get your anger out
be happy
feet make smiles on the floor
dancing away from you till you fall on your face
with a thump
OUCH
feet dancing on dragging all around the house
into the bathroom
down the stairs
BUMP BUMP BUMP
out the door
down the street
and into the oatmeal
GET OUT OF MY ******* OATMEAL!!!!!
all we want to do is eat your brains.

my promises are not empty
but still words mean nothing
the voices assure me i am hated
an epic fail
so far everything its said,
is true
but if i want to set my star ablaze
i cant listen to the darkness
i stand
knees quaking
soul shuddering
and tell the dark
that it is wrong about me
somehow
someway
i will set my star to an
incandescent
radiant
glowing bright
god ****** blaze
even if it kills me

"i still feel you on the inside biting through and stinging will i ever forget to remember?"
cautiously looking over the rim of this hole
open up the inside
once again i am sinking
the things in this hole
are pulling like quicksand
******* at my legs
the more you struggle
the faster you sink
what happened to caution?
i can feel them biting
it hurts
make them stop
tearing the flesh from the bone
into strips
not bothering to eat it
just dropping it
and going for
next piece
flesh all gone
teeth into muscle
stripping
tearing
there is one sitting on my chest
gnawing
trying to get to my heart
i don't have the energy
to pull it off anymore
i don't have the energy
to scream
tears flowing down my face
silently accepting my fate
whats wrong with me?
why don't i fight?
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE
THAT'S WHY

feels like numb, does numb have a feeling? yeah like pins and needles, pins and needles, pins and needles. pins in your pocket and needles in your arm. looking out the crack in the wall. afraid to venture out cuz you know that the minute you do some one will slit your throat, right up behind you and give you a red smile.then where will you be? in a red river washed up dried up made of ash, gust of wind can blow you away. looking down as you float  thru the air settling on roof tops making this ***** with your soot.  spread so thin like butter on toast fat free and free of insects quench your thirst on this stream of words spilling out my mouth like a fountain mildly manic depressingly sober sitting on the couch drinking mud and listening to tunes emanating from the floor destination unknown physical or mentally crying for something that is not with in reach unspecified specifications