who would have thought
that after dancing
with the devil himself
exploring the depths of hell
then searching every corner
crevice and valley
of the abyss
we'd make it out
no one actually expected us to make it
let along alive

cry cuz it feels good
smile cuz your hurt
laugh cuz your dying
scream silently cuz no ones listening
tell them your fine cuz no one can tell the difference
tell them your okay cuz really your not
they only ask to be polite
they dont really care
keep it inside
let it decay
your already dying inside
it doesnt matter anyway
cant **** yourself cuz everyones watching
people rely on you
dont want to hurt anyone
even tho they hurt you
harden up *****
make a ****** shell
dont let it crack
dont let it crack
dont let it crack
dont be weak
show no emotion

I am grieving,
yet expected to maintain.
The decorum of my inner self is inky black,
slimy and sticky to the touch.
I fill myself with substance harmful.
I am deadly to the touch.
If you look too long
ill start to decay.
Advert your eyes.
Shoo your children away.
Exquisite in beauty'
Terrifying in demeanor.
The room grows cold when I enter.
Silence all around.
I beg you continue the fun.
I'm not here for you.
I'm here for myself.
I only come to.self destruct like you.
For once I was human and needed
Self destruction
Self mutilation
Integrity gone
Empty shell of beauty.

dope no way out
by Natalie Elizabeth (Notes) on Wednesday, March 23, 2011 at 3:20pm

Sick of all the weakness and all the pain Sick of all the ******* and the shock in the brain Sick of all the losers and all their lies Sick of all the people that watch you go by You gotta get away But there's no way out No, no, no There's no way out No, no, no Sick of all you ingrates just complain Sick of all the stupid **** you push in my brain Sick of that follow but don't know why Sick of all you ******* and I wish you'd just ******* die You gotta get away But there's no way out No, no, no There's no way out No, no, no Here we go again Sick of all the sorrow Without a doubt I'll be sick of it tomorrow You gotta get away But there's no way out No, no, no There's no way out No, no, no There's no way out

deadbeat
by Natalie Elizabeth (Notes) on Thursday, April 7, 2011 at 10:42am

the knowledge i hold

neatly stacked inside my head

makes me want to *****

and laugh my *** off

disgusted

smells nasty like moonshine

fermented

rotten

taste bites the back of my throat

pulling up unwillingly, bile

clear bitter bile

turn my head and casually spit

**** kid you make me sick

but all i can do is laugh

pitiful

it came down to this

:) a love story
by Natalie Elizabeth (Notes) on Friday, February 4, 2011 at 4:09am

excitably waiting

pure ****** seething out my pores

as i sit next to you lovingly stroking your face

as i watch the blood bubbling out your mouth

dripping down the side of your face

i lean close and softly kiss your cherry lips

it excites me to see you in so much pain

it makes me feel better knowing I'm the one who caused this pain

this is me showing you how much i hurt, how much you've hurt me

bring you to the brink of death

and leave you there

waiting to see if the gods deem you clean enough to show mercy and allow you recover

take my knife and slide it up under your ribcage

i hold your head in my lap and lean in to kiss you again

more blood trickles out your mouth

tastes metallic

tears leak from your eyes

as you look at me not asking why

because you already know

I'm only returning the favors

you've kindly given me

:)