Everyday the knife is turned
Plunged straight through my heart.
No longer here, my other half
Because I did depart.

I feel so empty, in despair.
Long for you at night.
Life so dark full of pain
You were my only light.

And time I wish I could turn back
Now it is too late.
There will be no other one like you
First love and my soul mate.

How you have afflicted me pain
What you have done to me
Does your conscience ever
Whisper my name?

Left in your filth
You left me to wallow
Where you aware of the consequences
To me that would follow.

Did you feel gratified?
Did you get your kicks?
As I laid there terrified
Out of me, you got your fix!

Couldn't you hear me crying?
Couldn't you feel my pain?
You’re the one, who broke me
Yet I am the one in shame.

Addicted to his sent
And the feeling of a heart beating
Next to yours at night
In exchange with putting up
With whatever he feels suits you
Reducing you to tears
Serving you a fright.

Preying on you vulnerabilities
You are like putty in his hands
He twists the key in your back forcefully
You entertain his every command.

Consumed by his own fears
And jealousy
Convincing his self that to your life
He has the right.

You take what he deals you
Emotionlessly
Just for a beat of a heart
Next to yours at night.

****** the life right out of me
Drained my soul won't set it free
Haunt me
Taunt me
Draw me in
You'll be my fate
I'll be your sin.

It draws you in
And off you it feeds
You pity yourself without it
You think it is all you need.

Lost in your chilled out
Delusional place
Thrown back any lifeline
Which could replace.

Naive, you think it's
Harmless, recreational fun
A victim of the consequences
As it eats your insides numb.

Coming back to the real world
It grinds you, a constant itch
It plays with your mind aggressively
You’re seduced to your next fix.

My life is hanging
By a fraying thread
Which is straining with
Life’s corruption
And when it snaps
I will be dead
I thrive on thee
Anticipation.

Life itself, infected by ill will
Causing erosion to my heart
Hardened against good in a callous way
I have known this from the start.

The pain the hurt, fear
And anger
Emotions I fail to cease
Go in together combine as one
Savagely waiting for its release.

Let go of in a noxious manner
An agitation of ones mind
As I set it, free on to someone else
How guilt causes me to subside.