my sentiments are deep
they keep me full
to experience entirely
radiates as a whole
seeking validation
inherently brings destruction
you cannot empathize
these thoughts
too intricate to define
feelings which are mine
a heart that beats
to the rhythm around
from a slow and steady pace
now a punch and a pound
my past brought me here
let my symphony
be written by this tempo
of emotional harmony

boys.
the one who sent me flowers
he never came to see me.
the one i talked to for hours and hours
he was very quick to flee.
the one who played music
he always concealed the truth.
the one who shared toothpicks
he chose the path of youth.
the one who had dreamy eyes
he left me with "i love you".
the one who loves to fly
my love he never knew.
each one takes
and takes
and takes some more.
when do i get one that
respects
honors
deeply loves me from the core?

i'm haunted by something i cannot define
lingering emptiness through expansive time
the poison only bears temporary satisfaction
the sedated *** only to mask unwanted attraction
they ***** my body : they ***** my mind
broken misfortune i always seem to find
play me this song
heal these wounds i carry along
a story of purity and evil
tragedy i would rather conceal
for being is just not enough -